I love Life =)

Seriously, lol.

2011-08-31T02:09:00.000-07:00

Hey Blog,

It's been a LONG while man. Few more months to 2 years since i actually posted something until i actually forgot your url n password. LOL.

Anyway,

Wow, it's like.

i felt like i've grown lots. Probably not physically-well maybe physically too (though its sideways ZZ) and mentally, spiritually, and dunno what else la. lol.

It was as if these 2 years was a roller coaster ride. I guess.

N frankly speaking,

i reached places that i never thought i would ever reach, EVER man.

It was so.. I don't know man. I mean different. I guessed i just scratched the tip of 'life's experience'. LOL.

So different. So naive i was. lol. n now i actually see what things really are.

There has also been so many different perspective that i actually got lost. lol. i think i'm still lost. So, i'm still searching.

I guess i can confess that i never once thought that i will actually experience/feel/think all those that have occured to me in the last 2 years.

Comfort zone i was in. yeah. LOL.

So yeah, conclusion:

Grown? Yes.

Matured? Yes.

Laughed? Yes.

Cried? .. Yeah.

Disappointed? Yes.

Hoped? Yes.

Surrendered? I think almost.

Pondered? Definitely.

Think? Woah, yeah.

Wondered? Yes.

Learnt? Yes.

Experienced? Yes.

Mourned? Yes.

Scored? Yes.

Dreamed? Yes.

Soared? i guess.

Fell? Yeah.

Stood back up? I think so.

Anticipated? Yes.

Felt rejected? well, actually literally rejected. LOL. Yeah.

Emo-ed? Plenty.

Angered? Sure.

Regretted? Hell, No.

So i have literally err, well. Have been pushed left, right, front and center. SO WHAT. lol.

I can choose to continue feeling that.

I can choose to stand tall once again. Life's lesson.

Either way, it's gonna be tough.

A few realisations have hit me real hard.

Sad i was, sad i am, and sad i will be.

But that's not gonna stop me from achieving the things that i believe in, whatever it is.

Though i'm at least 90% unsure of my current view, path and beliefs, i have already decided to take it all in. I have, i guess learnt to live, laugh out loud and cry.

Though i have no idea where my path is leading me, i am glad that i've chosen this path; because only through this winding path, i would have learnt all that i have experienced today.

So, i shall end my post with my favourite poem (who knew literature could be so helpful):

The Road Not Taken, Robert Frost.

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Sincerely,
Me. :)

Hi people =)

2009-12-12T07:14:00.000-08:00

haha!

it has been such a loooooonnnnng time since i logged in. XD Too lazy. Heh. Anyway, exams just ended. Its not even a week and i was already feeling so.. i duno.. weird, and reali .. weird. LOL.

Crazy? Maybe. Heh.

Anyway, i tink i found out the cause.

N i DUN blieve it!

HAHAHA!

Seriously, i'm feeling super fine now. Hopefully it last =).

Maybe it was the post exam blues.. n uncertainties.. n maybe another reason which i duntink i'll ever admit it out here. HEHE. =)

So, HAHA! i have my mood back! N i'm loving it XD. Life feels so much better now eventhough i have nothing much to do, now.

Tinking of taking part time classes.. but i duwana go alone..lol

Then, i have to tink, n tink, n think.

Hmm.

Its so funny..

haha

n i hav to tink if i wana be who i tink i shud be,

or actually..

well..

adapt..

which i'm reali..

well

speechless.

HEH.

Anyhow,

i duno wat to say ady.

So..

but..

well.

Esh.

Nothing adyla.

Except that

i'm reali happy NOW. =)

hahaha!

gdnite people!

17th =)

2009-08-30T07:51:00.000-07:00

Hello. Do u have any idea how lazy i am to log in this website? LOL
Aniway,
i'm wishing Tan
LOL

Happy Birthday

!!!!!!!

Hahaha,

i seriously do not know what else to write.

hav fun!

Nite!

i'm logging out

hahahaha

Hey, YOU! I'm a Malaysian.

2009-08-19T01:54:00.001-07:00

Hey, YOU! I'm a Malaysian.

In many episodes in my supposingly 17 years of life, I have encountered many people who scoffs, laughs, and give that smile when being asked this very simple question- "Do you love your country?". I find it amazing that 10 out of 10 persons give the same reaction towards that question. Now, i am not surprise if you are one of them. This particular attitude has become the norm of our society these days. Once, when I did raise my hand when asked "Who here loves Malaysia?", not only were there people asking me,"You DO?!", majority of them were staring at me in awe. Surprised by the reaction? I guess not. You would most probably be more shock by my confession towards our country. Oh well.

The issue here is, why are Malaysians not loving their own country? Some even asked me why do i love Malaysia. Truth to be told, i do not know why. When I give them that answer, they stare at me and finally give me that "Aiyoyo..you don't even know why and you say you love Malaysia-kah?" look. [Laughs]. After receiving such looks for several times, I somehow began to wonder why I love my family. Is it their love that made me love them? The way they treat me? The things that they provide me with? The "without them I will not be here" reason? Then what about my brother? He was not the reason I am here today, and yet I love him. So what IS the connection? Even after months, and years, I could not figure it out. In Moral Education especially, when they ask the necessity for treating our parents well in their golden years. I suppose that it is the most natural thing to do. But, why?

After thinking about that on-and-off for several years, I accidentally connected it to my love for the country. Ironically, they were the same; I do not know why I love them. As a result, I assumed that there is no need for reasons. Afterall, I love them and that is all that matters. It does not really matter why I love them. So, back to Malaysia. Eventhough I do not really know why I love my country, there are a few things that I found out lately that I love watching and experiencing.

You would have probably heard this hundreds of time over and over again, but yes, I enjoy this feeling very much. Just thinking of the varieties of food, clothes, languages, cultures and beliefs that we have makes me smile. Before I start, I am not comparing to other countries, just being contented. As a person who is quite picky on food, I might only eat certain types of food. However, my favourite consists of meals made by various types of people. Then, there are also the choices of clothes. I find traditional clothes very interesting and unique eventhough people hardly wears them nowadays. Even those from East Malaysia are very interesting. Besides this, the various superstitions are interesting to hear about. Being in a country where so many different people who originated from various parts of the world, there would certainly be superstitions that we would have never heard about if we do not cross paths. Hence, this awes me. Also, not to forget, the different type of languages that you can hear daily-WOW. Do you not agree? [Smiles]

Oh, before I forget, I LOVE the feeling of "togetherness", when people actually do not judge others and yet are able to have fun, regardless of who they are. Call me naive, but that will not change what I love. [Smiles] And yes, eventhough we are each unique in our own ways, the assimilation process that have been going on for decades have made us even more unique as one. So you see, what is there not to love about the country? Mind you, I am referring to the country. Next, with people NOT loving their country, is it possible for the country to prosper? Still, that is a different issue. The question is, how can YOU stay in a place that you dislike? Imagine being accepted to a family or school that you do not like. What is the point? Hmm, perhaps I am more "passionate" about all these as i do not think I will be happy living in a place that I dislike. Oh well, it is your choice. There is one thing that I have to say though. After many years of smiling when being posed by that question just to avoid weird smiles and questions, I have finally realize that there is nothing wrong with loving my beloved country (no matter what most of you may think). So, I AM a Malaysian, and it will stay that way until the day i die. (then it will be WAS) [Laughs]

Lastly, there is a phrase that i HAVE to add to my confession:

I love you, Malaysia. [Smiles]
BUT
I do not necessarily love the people in it. Thank you people. =)

[LAUGHS]

Choir 2009 pictures XD

2009-05-07T02:25:00.000-07:00

WE are the best =)

n i know it! XD

Choir =)

2009-05-07T02:00:00.000-07:00

Omg..
words seriously cannot describe my feelings towards choir.
i'm super proud
and happy
hahahaha
it's so sweet!!
i don't know
but
i reali love this feeling.
it can realli make me feel warmth.
it's like
u feel the togetherness, the joy, the i dont know..
lol
it's a great feeling to be having.
n i'm super proud of you guys man!!!!!
love you all =)
n i mean it seriously
eventhough sumtimes..
ur kinda get on my nerves..
but
lol
i dun get mad for 2 long. HAHA
when ur actually start singing, and nicely too
i can 4get everything
THAT's the best part.
Ain't that sweet?
hahaha
n i noe my conducting aint good..
well..
my fault.
i dun noe wat to say.
..for that.. hehe
but i can tell
that
i do not regret being that.
lol
i get to watch ur perfomance!! but i still miss singing though =)
n oh yea..

Congrats!!!

this is not for getting 2nd.. thats in a separate post.

i congratulate your bcoz:

your did not let teachers down
your did not let ME down =)
your did not let MGS down
your did not let yourselves down
your did not let the other schools down
your enjoyed yourselves!!

hahahaha..

seriously, i'm happy. We performed well =)

n our ending was superb man..

its reali reali great.

i'm veri hapi.

4 those who feel guilty for bullying me, lol

dun wry, you're forgiven.

BUT, there's another 1 coming up!

SO, dont repeat that.

haha. i actuali at 1 point wondered if i was gona b like su ern..

lol

luckily i didnt. Hehehe. But, it is kinda tough.

it's like a circus.. hehehe

i actuali wanted to describe it but decided not to, you guys made me so proud =)

n i reali wana thank all of you!!

Thank You!!! =)

it'll be one of my best memories..

alongside softball. =)

love you all. XD

=)

2009-04-30T01:52:00.000-07:00

Some people tend to take it for granted on certain things.
i do not know how people can be so ignorant sometimes.

Where is the feeling of responsibility?

The semangat of setia kawan?

The semangat patriotisme not only towards the country, but also to the school?

The sifat perikemanusiaan?

It really is depressing to see all these gone.

Do u noe wat the impact is towards others?

The feeling of being betrayed, sad, dissapointed, angry can be build up in a person.

All these will also give a bad example to others, especially those younger ones.

ONE single person, doing ONE tiny action, can affect people in many ways.

For example, ------>YOU being MAD

what happens?

in School:

You pull down the mood of others.

You gave an indirect warning to people to stay away from you.

Friends start to see you as a bit weird.

Class start ignoring you.

Tension in the class increases.

Your best n good frens worry 4 u.

The mood of the class go down.

The teachers that enter looses sum spark.

at the end of the day:

Most of your frenz's mood are pulled down by at least a few %.

at home:

You bring your mood home.

Your parents already had a very tiring n exhausting day just as you but decided not to show.

You test their patience.

They burst.

You burst.

Everybody burst.

Happy family? Not.

Ruin the relationship between family members, decreasing the % of closeness.

Everyone quiet.

Interesting huh?

Check this:

Your other friends go back to their own house n do back the same ting.

what happens?

Hapi neighbourhood? Hm?

In the office:

Your parents still frustrated start snapping at other people.

Basically, they go back n do the same ting.

Now,

Tell me.

How can the world be in a happy place if people are ignorant?

Not people has the "smile always" attitude.

So,

Learn from now!!!

P.S.

Your smile might bring a depressed person's mood up.

It will cheer the world =)

SMILE!! =)

Smile!

2009-04-30T01:49:00.000-07:00

SMILE

Aint it good to be smiling?

It actually clears your worries, n make u feel better.

it even make those around you to feel better. =)

NOW,

who says that when you are in a sad or bad situation, you cant smile?

Wont that make the situation worst?

hmm?

SO, simplest is to smile.

If you dont know what to answer ppl, just smile.

even a NON sincere smile will help

Hari Kecemerlangan

2009-04-24T08:10:00.000-07:00

lol. i know tis is suppose to be b4 softball but softball was much more interesting. Hopefully choir competition will be too. =)

We (choir) were asked to perform 4 hari kecemerlangan.
N u noe wat?
i was pretty bz the week b4 n during that week too.
To add on, i had food poisoning,
-vomitted 8 times in a day n had diarhoeas.. yea..
lol i even skipped my tests. (400 marks gone!)
oh well. I had to get well ASAP for choir n the admaths quiz.
THEN,
i reali can receive stress from all over the ppl man..
its like..
lol
nvm.
Aniway, we decided to sing "stand by me"
BUT it wasn reali suitable 4 the "old ppls-penolong kanan, as usual"
heh.
i was kinda pissed.
SHE acatulli asked us to change song 2 days b4 the hari cemerlang n sing a diff song on the spot.
WOW.
wat did she tink we were?
Auto programmed robots?
like NO! IF you r so bloody smart, YOU shud come n take over n see hw nt easy it is.
Luckily, i was still sumhow able to smile n tolerate her totally immature behaviour.
Then
haha
i'll just go straight to the performance.
I thought it was kinda nice..
but it seems that there were like complains frm the teachers n after hearing it..i 2 tink its nt THAT nice. haha
how dissapointing.
BUT
i had fun, i blive v all had fun.
THATS the most important ting. i duwana stress them out. THAT is so not choir.
I dun get that teacher.
Dahla mau menang. U ingat mau menang senangkah? Hm?! Nanti takda orang mau masuk macam mana? Hmm?!! Kau nyanyi solo mea? EEsh..
heh. duwana let her spoil my mood.
Well, main ting is:
i HAD fun. HAHA. WE sang together, n i blieve we were all happi. N having fun. i LOVE that feeling. THAT is waht made me so hapi for softball. We were all there for each other.
i hope.
i pray.
i KNOW
n we WILL.
WE WILL.
sumhow.
no matter wat.
i'm gona let my mid year test go junam.
it BETTER ve worthwile.
i will not regret.
i hav ady DECIDED.
There's no turning back for this.
-All the best!-
to me
=)

Softball MSSD

2009-04-24T07:00:00.000-07:00

Basically, since most of my teammates have posted about this, i'll just do 'touch-n-go" =)

1st day-20th April 2009

let's see..

lol okay

1st,

to tell the truth.

-i wasnt reali prepared for the game:

i missed lots of sat game practices n the previous sat too
i was too bz doing other tings, priorities divided (i know..i know)

-i assumed that we were gona be champ..sumhow, that thought was with me the whole way through. Haha

2nd,

well.. Mr Teh said my wait, he still says my fielding sucks.. lol actually he dont have to tell it, i already know it. he asked me to be the D4-which means i just bat n run, i dunhav to field. Tat fella, seriously. That was the exact same thing that i asked for when i was in form 3. N do u noe wat he replied?

"If you're not gona field and u oni wan to bat, then wats the point of u playing softball?! Get in the field!"

LOL. N wat happen this year? Hm? lol.. oh well. i prefer it this way though. Though being the reserve is fun, its kinda lonely watching them play n u nt being able to participate. But.. haha i know i'm bad but i had few ppl to teman me tis yr cuz there were too many main players (hehehe). Nvmla, experience wat, n its fun too watching. Haha

3rd,

Okay, lets go straight to batu unjur. 1st game-Bukit Kuda. Hmm.. it was okay i guess. The field was super dry, wearing boots actualli hurt the feet. Haha, aniway the weather was superb!! It was so breezy N cooling-sumtin that i nvr expected. BUT, it was still veri sunny-sunburn now. Haha. okay, the game details just get it frm a-min. Lol. She got everything u need.

Then, we went to Giant as planned n got our McDs. XD lol. N then we say sue's peminat-scary man. He kept followin us.. lol. Aniway, oh yea! Sze Lyn was here too. LOL. N she merajuk half way. Super cutela, dahla berusia, minda macam budak. (HAHAHA) Okay, then it was the game with Meru. Actually, this game was kinda like normal.. u noe? But for the finals.. sumhow it was different. Wonder why? Hmm.. haha.

NON kaitan wit softball-[went tuition wit warna later, n Wow..lol warna n i took turns to slp in class. HAHA. I told her nt to go, she stubbornly refused n later regretted it in class. Haha]

NOW,

2nd Day-21st April 2009

okay, 1st

the moment i woke up, i heard the rain. THEN, my dad told me it has been raining heavily since the middle of the nite. SO, i prepared xtra shirts, socks, n shoes. Haha, in case. It was already decided. Its the day 4 swimming.

2nd-

B4 i even leave the school, we were yelled at frm Pn Azimah. THIS totaly distract me, n i'm nt reali important in the team..well yea.. But the ting is, it WILL affect wei chin, shi yunn n shiau ling..well sl seemed fine about it. The other 2 were kinda worried. So, on the way to batu unjur, i told them nt to worry bout it cuz i'll worry bout it. But..heh. I decided to dump it to a side n focus on softball. I'm human too. Cant be tinking of too many things at once u noe? Can PENGSAN. Still, we were a bit distracted bout it.

3rd-

WOW, i tell u man. WOW. i was totally speechless at the 1st game with teluk gadong. It seems that they were enjoying n we were.. not? Lol. Aniway, it probably (no offence to them) is normal for them to go running around the mud. BUT well haha. OUR team, is a well erm.. better "class" sort of ppl n dun go running around to b dirty. Lol. U can actualli see sum of us avoiding puddles while they just ran pass them. Even the umpire laughed at us.. oh well.

N then, wow. Being the spectator, i was reali speechless. Its nt the good speechless though. Their mistakes were like.. i duno wat to say. Haha. I can even laugh. Was too speechless, but the mood was so tensed. I decided not to say aniting. Mr Teh n Siew Kim said enugh ady aniway.

4th

We lost terribly to Teluk Gadong. Amazing aint it? Haha. So, well, Mr Teh started counting the marks n at 1st we thought he was joking that we werent able to go to the finals NOR the semi finals. THEN, he officially announced it. I was like "...", STILL speechless. Then Siew Kim started tellin us that we were SO close to the gold medal..n ..yea..

Everyones head were down.. TAT moment, wow. Its not nice AT ALL. N the worst part is, i was only speechless n i can even laugh. Wonder wat was i tinking? Hm. Aniway, sumhow i still didn feel it was the end. FINALLY, when almost every1 started to talk-thank god. THAT felt so much better, B4 that it was super silent-now THATS creepy. I was startin to tink..

"It's our last year. I wun get to bat ever again wit my beloved softball teams, my gloves, the ball itself, the field, and even the sunburn!!"

i was finally letting out sum point of views, n it seemed that Siew Kim was enjoyin it. LOL. THEN,!!! Hahahaha!! Sudd Siew Kim told us that Shiau Ling said that we were entering the semi finals. we all SCREAMED!!!!!!! HAHAHAHA

SERIOUSLY!

THAT was the 1st time in my ENTIRE life to scream SOOO loudly n freely N continuously. Luckily, i wasn alone. Haha, we were ALL screaming TOGETHER. THATS the fun part!! The best part was that we all regain our mood to win n enjoy! Everyone was cheering n smiling. IT was the BEST moment for softball. -SIGH-

5th

Semifinals-against Klang Utama. MUAHAHA

last year's unresolved grudge. WE sumhow lost to them last year, n v finally let it out. Shiau Ling's pitch was superb! n it was just WOW. We got so many run ins that i haha.. i actually feel bad for them. Its really too bad that the 1 good ball that was bat by them was caught by wei chin. Haha, THAT reali pulled down their mood. Aniway, everyone's mood was back! THATs the main point. It was no longer stressful, it was fun!

well..sumhow that didn enter my head when it was my turn to bat. It seems that when i just wana hav fun, every ball that i bat will be batted. BUT, sumhow, i was kinda tensed. Lol. I spinned a few rounds, without batting the ball. Which got a few "Ciuyi-ah!" from Mr Teh. As usual. =) BUT, i DID manage to bat the ball n i didn kena strike out. As a matter a fact, i dun tink any of us did get strike out at all this year. -PROUD-!! XD

6th

FINALS

1stly, when i saw the same field that we lost to teluk gadong, i was ady like "oh..kay..". Sumhow, i dun like that field anymre. Haha. Aniway, Meru played much better compared to the day b4 n this time there werent any rooms for unfairness cuz there were like 4 umpires. Haha. THAT was actuali suppose 2 avoid judgement error. BUT u noe wat? I was sent out cuz i "left the base too soon". i was like wat the hell.. seriously. I know mayb during practices i might sumtimes hav been bit too eager to start running. BUT it was different. I WAITED. i PURPOSELY waited for the ball to reach halfway b4 i started running. i was even a bit slow. AND he! HE! No offence, but were u blind or sumtin? If u wana kick me out bcuz i reached the 1st base too late, just tell me so. You dunhav to kick me out AFTER deciding NOT to kick me out when i didn do aniting wrong in the next round. I was reali kinda pissed man. Aniway, I'm VERY proud to say this:

HAHAHA, i banged 2 ppl n we both fell. N i'm actually proud to do so. YOU were blocking my way. Not my fault. Lol. AND, i managed to sorta drag the time for 2 run-ins. HAHA.

Okay, then it was like sorta kan cheong time 4 us. Lol. We thought we lost again like last year. BUT at least it was more worth it compared to last year. W really lost for nothing last year. N it is still not worth it. Oh well, haha. We got it this year! XD

Mr Teh-HAHAHA. He was sooo hapi. He ran with shiau ling, n then he CRIED. LOL. Seriously, i know he's sorta kinda nice n all. (my god.i'm actuali admiting tis) LOL. But i nvr expected him to like have tears n all. HAHA. We were all screaming n hugging each other. Proud dui!!! Hahahaha. Oh yea, Cik Jas. Haha She's so cute! Hahaha, she's more nervous than us n she dun reali understand the game 2. So she will b like "kenapa? Kenapa?" hahaha. She said she omost had a heart attack cuz she was so afraid that we cudn make it to the semi finals. Hahaha. Oh well, she's sweet XD

Well..think thats all. Its kinda long actually, haha. Those moments will forever b in me. -Sigh- Hahaha

Oh yea, there are few "Btws"

Our team-the so called "nerdy" team n takda sportmanship langsung punya, managed to get 1st!!! Hahaha. Siew Kim was like "Your can hold ur head up high man" LOL. Agreed though. haha
Looi Yoong n Jas Min got homeruns!!! Hahahaha. Super cool. Super fun. Super sweet!! XD haha
i dun reali feel i did much..i oni bat like..few rounds.. but yeah.. well.. lol =)
Shi yunn. Haha, kesian dia. Wana noe wat happen to her? Ask wei chin. She'll give u the exact details of her. Hahaha.
It has been i dun reali noe, 6 or 9 years? Hmm anywy, it has been THAT long b4 they got champion. Haha, it was reali a sorta like historical moment!!!! Hahaha. Still veri happi =)

oh yea, the most important ting:

i LOVE my teammates

EVEN love Coach n seniors n teacher. (HAHA)

i LOVE softball!!!!!!

-no regrets!-

Random Facts bout me XD

2009-03-26T06:16:00.000-07:00

do u know why i hate seatbelts?

well..cuz i LOVE to lie at the back seat XD

i love singing

even so, i dun sing n frnt of evry1 n i dun sing everywhr lol

i sumhow blieve "face" is nt meant to be spoilt

no matter u r desperate o not

i hate pathetic ppl-especially girls

spoiling girl's reputation

i actuali have lots on my mind..

but i cant seem to rmbr them now

hahaha

so i guess tats all

i'll add soon..

when i rmbr

haha

Choir

2009-03-26T05:58:00.000-07:00

wow..
i was totally blinded by stress and urgency of the nearing competition til i actuali forget the actual meaning of being in a choir!
hahaha
eventhough there was sum part of me which realize that being in a choir is to enjoy,
i didn reali feel that way
due to sum particular reasons..=)
aniway
after hearing the previous year's choir
i do not know why..
somehow
i remembered y i entered choir in the 1st place
the joy is not only in singing, but being together as one
hahaha
well..
it's still not too late
i hope o rmrbr to enjoy in the future practices..
n to those members reading this
i'm sori if i was bit nt so nice
haha
but i'll b a devil if u guys dun bhave
XD

oh yea
n do remember-i AM human too
n i hav other responsibilities too
dun add to my burden, u r suppose to b a source of entertainment
lol
all the best!!

=)

2009-03-18T04:30:00.000-07:00

I miss being small

i miss being a child

i miss waiting for the bus

i miss rushing to go to another school

i miss running around and scraping my knee

i miss winning n losing

i miss my classrooms

i miss my slipper prints on the ceiling as well as the wall

i miss the times whr we wud sell each other tings

i miss hitting my friends

i miss my old schools

i miss my old table n chairs

i miss my the blackboard

i miss being scolded by my teacher

i miss learning how to dance and sing

i miss performing

i miss the canteens

i miss screaming at disgusting tadpoles n millipedes

i miss running to the toilet under the rain

i miss the good old swing

i miss the flooded area

i miss how we used to hop on small chairs to get across water

i miss how we used to carry our slippers n walk bare footed in the flood

i miss waiting for the humps on the road in the bus

i miss kicking my friends

i miss playing games during class

i miss exam periods where they have longer breaks for us to play

i miss camping in my old school field

i miss the corridors

i miss my old school canteen days

i miss my old uniform

i miss the old computer room where we stomped our foot

i miss the new computer room where we froze inside

i miss playing at the basketball court

i miss the libraries where v played uno

i miss playing maths magic

i miss running down the stairs due to fire alarms

i miss times where i sat for my UPSR

i even miss the toilets!

hahaha

2009-03-17T03:40:00.000-07:00

well,
it has been a long time since i've updated.
School's busy
and everyting is demanding
so i didn't realli get a chance to blog..
lol
not that i do it whenever i go online anyway..
okay
u noe wat?
the older i grow, the more i rather be younger
wana noe why?
when we were younger,
many things n situations were received, given n felt more sincerely
but as people grow up,
they tend to get more selfish.. well
more clear on wat they actuali want
so in the end
it bcomes less sincere
..
well
but life goes on
the oni regret is
u will not feel the same way again
=)
but i dun tink i'll change that much
...
that doesn mean u can take advantage on me!!
=P
see ya

preparation for CNY? lol

2009-01-24T07:43:00.000-08:00

hi,
i havent really been updating my blog due to my hectic schedules..
not really planned by me actually
i seriously cannot imagine life this year
actually just living the "live at this moment" style
lol
hopefully i wont drop dead
XD
like for example last week
Wow..

It is truly amazing i'm still fine and going..

not to mention Chinese New Year is coming!!!~~~~

yay!!

it means its time for FOOD XD

i cant live without food hahaha

i love the Cookies!!!

and the peanuts and groundnuts!!

and dried meat oso!!

hmm..

n oh yea not to mention the inedible angpaos!

hahaha

me wan food!!

and cookies!!

and guess wat?

hahaha

my dad FINALLY taught us how to make the meatballs...

after saying that for erm...bout 4 to 5 years

i've missed this ematball cuz my aunt stopped making them since 2-3 years ago.

Now i know why, its tedious!

haha

anyway

n i fried prawn n fish crackers!!

hahaha

anyway tomorrow's new year eve!!

means erm..i dun reali noe

reunion

hahaha

okay

so i tink thats all for now

gdnite every1

n have a veri Happy Chinese New Year!!

Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!~

My Kidnapped Prize

2009-01-17T03:17:00.001-08:00

Lol.. another 1, look at the comparison XD
my teacher took it from me..
sobs
sobs
tis was in form 2 i think
luckily i took picture of it!
haha

My Masterpiece XD

2009-01-17T03:06:00.000-08:00

1st view:

2nd view:

hahaha!!!

we went for bengkel kepimpinan today and guess what?
hahaha
we actualli sorta attend 4 drawing class
haha
me, shi yunn n wei chin were drawing
well mostly me n wei chin
hahaha
so..
here is my
MASTERPIECE!!!
LOL

give sum comment pls
=)
it's my 1st time drawing wit the thing right in front of me
HAHAHA
in 3D
XD
wow.. this is super cool man..
lol
its my 2nd time uploading pic
hehehe
i'm putting 2 pics so u can see the pics frm different views..

lol

so syok sendiri XD

Tagged.. lol

2009-01-14T05:29:00.001-08:00

lol..
i tink the only ting i'm bloggin bout is being TAGGED..lol

here goes ::::

Rules:
*this tag is open for both sex*
*be honest*it must be true
*must tag 5 people*
no tagging back

What is your favourite colour?
-Purple?

What is your favourite food?
-err..i dun reali noe..lol

What is your favourite drink?
-water, noe why? Its taste depends on u!

What kind of girl/guy do you prefer?
-err..a guy that is a guy? HAHA

How do you want your crush to confess that he likes you? *more than 1 answer
-err..wat is this tag about actuali?
lol, if u wana noe ask me then i'll tell u..
XD

What do you want your boyfriend/girlfriend to give during Valentine's day?
-erm.. a promise?

5 unlucky ppl that i'm gonna tag...
(MUAHAHAHAHAHA)
-YOU!
-YOU!!
-YOU!!!
-YOU!!!!
-YOU!!!!!

hahaha..no cheats XD

Tagged

2009-01-08T05:08:00.000-08:00

Tagged by Danny
twice in a row.. nvm i'm not doing the 2nd cuz right beneath this post is THAT EXACT tag which i've done TWICE!!

okay:

1. Coffee / Tea
-dun reali drink both.. both oso fine

2. Noodles / Rice
-depend lo =)

3. Ocean / Lake
-BOTH!

4. Phone / Computer
-phone more hehehe

5. Smsing / Calling
-sms more fun sumhow..hehe

6. Durians / Fried Worms
-aint it obvious? DURIANS!

7. Coke / Sprite
-Spite XD

8. Cold Weather / Hot Weather
-definitely cold, i cant stand heat

9. Pancakes / Waffles
-waffles!

10. Sand / Grass
- BOTH!

11. Vanilla / Chocolate
-vanilla XD

12. Coughing / Sneezing
-heh. Neither =P

13. Paper / Plastic
-paper, plastic is not good =)

14. Gold / Silver
-None actuali

15. Watermelon / Strawberry
-watermelon =)

16. Slippers / Shoes
-of coz slippers! unless..the place is reali dirty

17. Early Bird / Night Owl
-i think early bird..i'll sleep at nite..lol

18. Books / Magazines
-books XD

19. Tall / Short
-medium?

20. Heaven above / Paradise on Earth
-Paradise on earth! enjoy while u can =)

I Tag:

YOU!

Tagged (done this b4 Zz)

2009-01-02T19:21:00.000-08:00

I can't blieve i'm doing this AGAIN..

I've already done this..and TAN had to tag me again.. Zzz

oh well..here goes..

Do you think you're hot?

-err..NOPE

Upload a pic of urself ..

-wait..mayb i'll lol..HAHAHA!!! it's my first time uploading a pic! XD

Y do u like this picture?

-err..cuz it was naturally taken..n i look like a sakai? HAHAHA

when is the last time u have pizza?

-Last week!

the last song u listened to?

-err,,dun reali remember hehehe

what are u doing now beside this?

-chatting..XD

what name do u prefer besides ur name?

-my name is nice enough =P

5 ppl i tag...

-heh.. i've done this b4 so i'm not gona tag any1 tis round =)

Last minute of 2008

2008-12-31T07:56:00.000-08:00

2008..
a year..
like no other..

1st) There goes my sweet 16!!
hahaha

ermm..
i'lll update 2mw
lol
for now

Happy New Year!!!~

2009...

May everyone has a wonderful new year!!!

Words That Inspire Me..

2008-12-31T07:49:00.000-08:00

SORTA..
lol
okay here goes:

FAITH

HOPE

BELIEF

DETERMINATION

LOVE

TRUST

SPIRIT

STRENGTH

and actuali a few more..

but i cant really remember them when i want to

cuz now i'm kinda under pressure to type fast as it is already 11.57 pm

of 31st DECEMER 2008

its new year EVE!!!

okay okay

The Power Of LOVE...lol

2008-12-27T07:40:00.000-08:00

Guess what?
i found an interesting way to tag people from Su-ching
haha
and its kinda fun so i decided to do it eventhough i'm not tagged..lol
Here goes:::::

I. Put your iTunes/any other players on shuffle.
II. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
III. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
IV. Tag 11 friends who might enjoy doing this.

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
-Helpless when she smiles..lol

2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
-I don't love you.. hahaha

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
-Move Along

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
-Second Chance

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
-Shake It..HAHAHA

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
-Shut Up (never thought so hahahaha)

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
-Stop and Stare...err..okay lol

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
-Teenagers...omg!!! Hahahaha wat a coincidence

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
-Tongue Tied

10. WHAT IS 2+2?
-Welcome to the Black Parade..lol do u actuali expect 4? Zzz

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
-When i'm with you..wat does tis suppose 2 means?

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
-When you look me n the eyes..hahaha

13. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
-At the beginning...??

14. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
-Could It Be...hey! this is actually not bad

15. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
-Two Worlds...make sense? haha

16. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
-No Air..err..okay..

17. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
-In Love With You...HAHAHAHA

18. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
-Hero..WOW~ haha

19. WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
-I'm alive..how motivating XD

20. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
-It's My LIFE...got that right!

21. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
-Over You..lol

22. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
-Para para sakura..HAHAHA

23. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
-Say it again..makes any sense?

24. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
-The Power Of LOVE!...HAHAHA alright then, guess i gotta change my title lol

Tagging:
-muahahaha...EVERYONE who reads THIS! XD n those who like it as well..=)

hahahaha
aint that fun?
n interesting! hahaha
okay everyone gdnite!

Sunway Lagoon Trip XD

2008-12-26T08:19:00.001-08:00

okay...OMG!! i forgot the karoake trip..lol 2 actually.. nvm i'll talk bout that later
hahaha
aniway
v went to sunway last saturday
n so much 4 being early
we were late
n since it was a saturday
it was PACKed!
then
lol
v played the dry park 1st
but time was running fast
so v had to hurry n jumped into the pool
n i haven been to sunway lagoon 4 a few years..
n usually i nvr did play those rides
so i was like a 1st timer to most rides..lol
n then it was okay..
n fun..
n i was abandoned..
yea..
lol
then v bought burgers
to fill our empty stomachs b4 goin 2 the pool
wow..RM7 for a not-so-tasty burger..
infact, i tink the school canteens burger taste better! lol
okay
then we went 4 a few rounds in the ..umm..the circling pool or sumting like tat..
i duno the name
v rent sum tubes so v take turns to use it
then since 8 of us went, we split into 2 groups to sit the slides n to take care of the tubes
i was wit chiang, ly n ss
lol
we went to the another pool n played awhile b4 returning to the slide
the slide was awesome!!
lol
n the best part is i cudn see a ting!
hahaha
then later we went to the surf pool
n i was kinda high..or crazy..
lol
i pulled them to the water shooting from the walls..
it was kinda painful as the pressure was quite high
lol
but nvm
v had our fun
then we went to sunway pyramid to buy our dinner n then we went back to the ktm station
u noe wat?
there was tis taxi fella who tried to trick us in paying more than double of the original fare
since it was raining, we dcided to take the cab instead of the bus
luckily they went n ask the taxi counter or else we wud hav been cheated!
lol
n then
yea
we went back after that
n then after tat i ate mcD
lol
oh yea..
i was suppose 2 help my aunt make tang yuens..
i love eating them n wana make them
but
i was kinda exhausted n my parents asked me 2 rest so i didnt go..
sobs
but aniway
the next day i went n ate lots of tang yuens!!!
lol
hahahaha

Oh yea..lol

2008-12-26T08:14:00.000-08:00

There was another activity..
but i 4got which date..
we went 4 a movie-Bolt
n then followed by bowling after that
lol
wow oh yea! i remember it was on lu yis birthday
or near there
i'm recommending Bolt to u folks!
Bolt is a heart warming show
i actuali cried in the cinema..
lol
it was touching..
N
the hamster is cute!!
lol
serious
haha
aniway
after that we went bowling..
n my 1st round was TERRIBLE..
seriously terrible
longkang, longkang, AND longkang
lol
2nd round was better
XD
after "warming up"
okay tis was b4 the camp
after this i'm gona talk bout after camp activities
wow
i DO do tings sesat ly
i'm posting more than 2 post at a time
...
well
after not updating my blog 4 1 month +
lol

Past holiday activities.. XD

2008-12-26T07:55:00.000-08:00

okay..
lol
since this will most probably be my LAST holiday for my...life..err..yea..
lol-being dramatic here..(but its kidna the truth too)
aniway
i spent the 1st 1 month enjoying being at home..pratically most of the time
n then
i went for a camp on 10-16th Dec 2008
International Cadet Camp at templer's Park, Rawang
can u believe that i actuali went for 7 days?
-WOW-
but to tell u the truth,
i didn wat to go..i went cuz SUM1 in particular claims that it wud probably be our last camp..
SO, i decided to go.
IN THE END, well actually 1 week b4 the camp
i was actually feeling quite excited..
n those 2 MONKEYS who actuali made me go didnt feel like going.
i was like.. "..." as in speechless..
lol
but i have already paid RM160 so i thought y not? its just 7 days..
BUT there is 1 ting that i reali reali hate-the bloody uniform
it's so expensive, n the tailor is soooooooo NOT good, N i hav 2 remove everyting n do it again when i wash! how ridiculous!!!!! nvm, nvm i was being patient with it..
okay
then 1st day itself
wow..
it was like
there's SOOO many participants that u actuali get a lot of free time
it was the 1st time i FELT like going home
seriously
no matter hw tired n pissed i was at any camps
i stayed on bcuz i duno..its fun
but this camp..OMG..
1 day felt like 3 days!!!..
well that is for the first 3 days
lol
okay..but i thought
i didn want to just give up like that so i stayed..
THEN
FINALLY the activities start on the 3rd day.
GOOD
finally
lol
n we went water rafting!! hahahaha n oso others but water rafting was the most fun activity then XD
v stayed n play there after our group played finish
hahaha
OH YEA
the FOOD was terible on the 1st day
walaoeh
i realli wonder wat those foreigners will comment on our food
lol
well n 1 team has 32 ppl!!
thats a LOT!
so we werent realli close..
but i guess it was alright so far the camp.
=)
it was an experience..good or not..i still cant figure it out
oh yea!
i almost forgot to mention about the police escorting 27 buses in a row through KL
lol
every1 had to stop 4 us n v can beat red lights too!
hahaha
thats was super cool
lol
n u noe wat?
RM160 is kinda cheap or worth it..
v not oni got food, accomodation, activities, transportation, v even got 2 t-shirts, a good torchlight + 3 panasonic batteries (lol), a cup, AND a bag
lol
i bought a pin n a keychain..4 rememberance
AND OH YEA
the toilet is terrible..
there is no water
imagine we were staying at NS camp..
EVEN if i get NS, i DON"T want it to be there!
oh yea
haha
i err..4got wat i wanted to say ady..
lol
but if u were to ask me if i wana go AGAIN, i reali nd 2 tink twice..maybe thrice
BUT if u turn time back n ask me wud i rather stay home or go 4 camp
i tink i'll still go.. =)
i tink i rate tis camp better than those 2 MONKEYS who ask me 2 go
lol
-peace!-
yellow 4

Tagged?

2008-12-26T07:47:00.000-08:00

LOL
i havent update my blog for such a long time that i actually typed wrong password..
hehehe
aniway
doing tag is a good way to actually revive my blog?
lol
i'm too lazy to blog..
anyway here goes:

10 things about the person who tagged you :
1)my friend
2)from the Editorial Board
3)helpful
4)great working partner
5)SMART XD
6)creative
7)responsible
8)simple and nice
9)pure
10)good debater
(practically copying from wat u said bout khaleeqa..lol)

10 things about yourself:
1)rough
2)despise celebs
3)lazy
4)chatter box
5)busy body
6)love outdoors
7)tomboyish
8)a girl?
9)jovial
10)sleeps like a log

10 person you would like to tag:
MUAhahaha...everyone who reads my blog! LOL

okay..
maybe i'll post something XD

Emotions

2008-11-29T07:44:00.001-08:00

i've recently realize that my emotions are greatly affected by songs and some stories which captivate me..
N i do not know why, but somehow stories that i've watched or read that attracts my attention builds a kind of feeling in me
i may sound naive, but i prefer happi endings than sad ones. However, if those endings are reasonable (according to my feelings) then i'll feel a sense of happiness or sumting like that (its natural i have no idea why)
BUT
if it ends with a twist that i tink its not good, i'll be thinking bout it over and over again like i cant let it go..only after months will the feeling die off slowly..
ALSO
if the stories end in a way that it is interesting n unique, according to my feeling, i'll tink less of it as i will think that it is reasonable
MY mood n my emotions are so erm.. i do not really know..but its weird
n i don't like it when these happen
n most of the time
when i actually goes to the cinemas to watch a movie, (most movies that i watch in cinemas are those that i tink should b reasonable in quality n taste) some will b like a comedy (madagascar-so its fine, i wont think too much bout it) BUT if its like romance, or a trilogy or something.. i'll be thinking about it 4 the whole week
N trust me, it is very hard to distract me from these thoughts
Zzz eventhough i do not want them in my head
THAT IS WHY
i have only a handful of storybooks
hahaha
BUT
the stories that i read are either meaningful, or completely ridiculous
i grade the stories that i've read differently
and when i say it's good
it's GOOD
if i say it's okay
then it's reasonable
IF i say it is LOUSY, throw that book immediately (haha seriously)
and yes, i guess that's it about stories..or i wont stop talking hehehe
n YES, if you reali wana know my comments for the secondary literatures, here they are:

Form 1: Meniti Kaca = belive it o not, i've cried reading this book. This book is not bad, really
: Short Stories = The Pencil is a nice story, Bunga Telur and Bally Shoes (if i'm not
wrong) doesn really have any meaning, and How Dalat Got Its
Name is quite meaningful
: BM komsas = I don't really remember, but the poems are quite nice all the way (that
is till form 4) some cerpen and prosa tradisional is quite nice too=)

Form 2: Pahlawan Pasir Salak = Believe or not, i have semangat patriotik in me, so this book
made my semangat membara (haha)
: Phantom of The Opera = I cant really comment on this particular short novel as i've
read the original novel (thanks to Wei Chin) and it is quite
touching and meaningful =)

Form 3:Panas Salju = No offence, but this is one of the MOST boring story that i've
ever read. Seriously, it's wasted effort, n to think that i can
reread both form 1 n form 2 novels n still feel the same way n
cried, i CAN'T even finish this book ONCE. This proves that it
is wayyyyy BORING
:Dr Jekyll & Mr. Hyde = Hmm..this book is quite interesting, not bad. But i did not
really have any feelings while and even after reading it.

Form 4:Bukit Kepong = It was okay i guess, but i think i was too lazy to read it properly..so its
okay. BUT its STILL much better than panas salju..Zzz
:Short Stories = I like the poems, the stories are not as interesting as form 1's so i guess
they'r emotionless? haha

Form 5:Konserto Terakhir = Maybe its because i've read the ending befor i read the front that i
do not get the feeling demanded by the author.. This story is quite
unique, and it's not bad =) At the begining it was quite nice, then
when Hilmi gets popular, the author kinda speed up the writing n
it was not really complete i feel.. and the ending well.. maybe
because i've read it so i do not feel it (i'm sorry)
:The Pearl = The title captivate me so i decided to read this b4 i touch konserto
terakhir as it was quite thick n i was feeling lazy..BUT it turned
out that KT is much more interesting than this. Zzz. The way they
authur describe the surroundings is quite interesting but i do not
really see the point of this story.. maybe i've expected MUCH
more.. Too bad then

I've not even finish telling stories about stories to get to songs and it is already 12.30am. So i guess i will have to continue 2mw..or maybe OTHER days (i'm quite lazy to sign in) hehehe

So, i guess its GOOD NIGHT!!
=)

~Tagged~

2008-11-29T07:30:00.000-08:00

Seriously, i have no idea how am i suppose 2 do this..its all in a mess Zzz

1. Do you think you’re hot?
NO way =)

2. Upload your favorite picture of you!
Heh~ no thanx

3. Why do you like that picture?
Bcuz i rarely take my own pictures unlike SUMONE XD

4. When is your last time you ate pizza?
Umm..i dun realli remember, but why r u asking?

5. The last song you listened to?
I have no idea too.. hehehe. Does my singing counts?

6. What are you doing right now beside this?
Online in msn waiting 4 ppl to come online

7. What name would you prefer beside yours?
i love my name, its unique XD

8. People I tag. (i'm not taggin those that tagged me-waste of effort-heh i'll just rewrite)
A. Tan
B. Wei Chin
C. Suwarna (but she's unable to get online now..so...)
D. Shi Yunn
E. Ling Wei

9. Who is A?
Emm..my petbro since standard 1 or 2 n i chat wit him everyday, cool huh? lol

10. A is having relationship with?
Oo..well, i dun tink i should say it out here..

11. Say something about E.
A brilliant, young, sweet n sincere friend =)

12. How about D?
She uhh..? She frequently tells me she hates me..n haha she's nicknamed prune n pig! XD

13. Who is B?
A friend who's frequently separated from me..since form 3 haha, but she's a good fren =)

Okay, i've finished this tag
thanx to this tag
i have mood to blog a post! lol

Kursus Kepimpinan

2008-11-12T05:26:00.000-08:00

hey..
Its not that bad
hahahaha
and u noe wat?
my group is the funniest! LOL
all girls n 1 boy
HAHAHAHA
kolian
n he was the leader
we were carrying out the group interactive activity together and we were like running around all over just like the other groups
and guess wat?
LOL
our group, group I won 3rd!!!
hahaha
seriously
none of us expected to win aniway
we were exchanging nums, friendster n stuffs
lol
our leader-Tommy lol
was in front
n lol
so bad n so sorry none of us cheered 4 him
(unlike other group) lol
then
cuz we got 3rd place so we were asked togo in front to take pic
then
HAHAHA
everyone else were like
"oni 1 guy n all girls? WOW"
lol
n its like the impression was
wow-the guy manage to lead the girls
lol
the impression is so like ???
but lol
its still very funny to me!
HAHAHA
AND YES
ling wei n jing yee's gona get a shoe from me if they dun stop laughing
BLEK!
lol
but i guess today wasn't that bad
except that i started havin headache since the prize giving part
until now
n somebody's telling me that he's gona hav triplet by next year
lol
wow~
lol
aniway
goodnite ppl!
XD

The Advantages of looking "not tough"

2008-11-09T04:52:00.000-08:00

i really owe an apology to myself
HAHAHA
people say i look girlish n not toughn bla bla bla
but
HEH! Boo! i dun tink so AT ALL
LOL
HAHAHA
this really makes me laugh
last year
when i started joining softball
i found out that it is a very nice game!!
a SUPERB game!!
hahaha
BUT
my coach aka mr. TEH
has to say me n my friends (some) so girlish n puteri lilin la n bla bla bla
so i guess i did look like that
nvm
then
lol
bcuz i went in kinda late n the team is oni limited to 9 person, the rest reserve
i was put as reserve
(lucky too cuz i have no idea hw 2 play lol)
but then
HE had a different mind
he wanted every1 to experience the game so v can play better next year
SO
i was put in
well
b4 that
the opponent pitcher was realli terrible
pitch all sort of balls : fly ball, grounded ball well practically everywhere except to us!
so emm well non of them get to bad it yet
cuz they are used to professional pitch XD
(not like their TERRIBLE TERRIBLE PITCHING)
hehe
aniway
so there i was
and as usual since it was already kinda after half the game
people tend to u noe like tink "aiya, its all the same wanla these ppl canot bat"
padahal their pitching is KANASAI=like SHIT
Oops sori XD
n then,
WOW!
i ACTUALLY manage to bat
!!!
hahaha
i actualli bat it
and well
the looks on their face was like "OMG, WAT?!!!'
HAHAHAHA
super funny man
SO
moral of story
DON'T underestimate ppl okay?
people may not look tough
haha
BUT
u may not noe
XD

Pathetic-Ness

2008-11-09T04:07:00.000-08:00

Is there such a term? "Pathetic-ness"?
nevermind
i Don't really care
Firstly,
I tink that people who loves getting attention by a certain way (bitchiness/hiaoness)
is super PATHETIC
they sell their self pride n they stoop so low
pardon me if u r really lack of attention
but that is SO not the way
n that is SUPER pathetic
i'm sorry
but i'm in a not very good mood to be nice
=)
N, worst still
they are only acting
n their acting is super CHEAP n only in front of certain LAGI pathetic ppl (the 2nd type) who is so so so pathetic who pretend to be blur or reali can blieve that SORT of acting
well.. don't u tink thats pathetic?
YUCK
-haish, i do not know any other term-
3rd,
people who yell practically at everything:- rats, crochoaches (is tis the spelling?), worms
anitingla
that is KINDA pathetic not as bad as those 2 mentioned above
i mean
come on la
i do not know if u r reali so scare of all these things o u just wants attention
but pls
sum of these things are not that scary
dun just yell like a spoilt brat-ah HA! thats another pathetic one!
and 4th,
i'm so sorry BUT
i cant stand ppl who r "weak"
i do not know wats their prob
they need so much help
WAIT-not as in bad type
i mean weak as in cry at little little things n giving up at little little things
that is so not the way again as i have said
they give the impression that they are weak
but they want so many things
in the end
do u noe wat happen?
they spoil the image of ppl!!
that is SUPER PATHETIC
i'm sorry
for example
girls who are weak-they spoil the girls name
that is SUPER PATHETIC ok?
it is so not true
people like them spoil the image of people who r not like that!
and that is just SOOOOOOOOO...i duno
i duno the term
hehe
well i'm done writing about pathetic-ness
XD
i'm sorry
thats cuz my mood is back
YAY!!!
hahaha
i was kinda bored just now
n the patheticness thingy just came to me
n i decided to blog it since my blog is kinda dead-actuali REALI dead
ok and lastly

NO OFFENCE to those who think they are these sort of ppl
IF u r, just well try to change
BUT if u do not intend to change n are still mad at it
pardon me, but
THIS IS MY BLOG
if YOU don't like to read wat i'm writing,
u can STOP reading
=)
ok
have a nice day!
XD

Greatest Respect

2008-09-21T00:50:00.000-07:00

Do you actually know what is the most respectable value that scientists possess?
Without that value, we would not have what we have today. Considering the attitude of the previous generation, well.. the current generation as well, they do not seem to accept new concepts and minds generally. Instead of evaluating the new idea to gain extra knowldege, they tend to condemn them. Thus, in my opinion, the greatest thing about scientist is that they have the courage to break free from the society norm and think something that seems to be impossible at that period of time to work for what they believe in. There you got it, the effect of their works n their successful creations, wondrous for our generation today. Now, due to these courageous scientists, people do not push away possibilities like the previous generation. Sad to say, however that there were scientist who have been punished, and some sentenced to death in a very cruel way due to their opinion voiced out which was proved to be true after a hundred years. Well, their work has truly given us a headstart in doing anything that we believe in and that is :

Stand up for what you believe in, as you never know what you believe in is right or wrong.

BUT:

If what you believe in is wrong in a negative way, try suggesting to a close person to see if it is bad.

GOOD LUCK!!

A Summarised Chart of General Beings

2008-09-19T08:50:00.000-07:00

Well, let's see. This is only a general assumption of mine and i have no interest in offending anyone. This topic is also readable to all ages in my opinion as i do not include any umm well..lets just say i'm being a little 2 formal. Nevermind then, i'll start.

Title: Certain Females and their Production of Offsprings

Similarities

-puberty takes place about the same time

60 years ago......Differences.....Currently, now
13-14 - age during marriage -late 20s to 30s
joy, celebration-reaction being pregnant-lost, depressed
joy, celebration -reaction of family-dissapointed, disowning
joy, celebration -reaction of society-bad impression, negative
have a family-effect on offspring-maybe aborted, abandoned
supportive, loving-reaction on partner-no where to be found
society norm -process of creating offspring-enjoyment?
well taken care of-future-ruin, destroyed
and many more..

Hence, the conclusion is
60 years ago, they struggle to free themselves from what seem to be the society norm to be able to gain knowledge -what our generation would never have get without their realisation. But, here they are today, SOME of them who voluntarily prepare themselves for the same situation where their ancestors have worked hard on freeing them from-all to ensure a more secure life. Worst, they do not understand that their partner and themselves are not ready for all this parenting and everything else as well as the society norm. In the end, their offspring becomes the victim to their irrational ideas in mind and so called "lust". Generally in a nutshell, i can conclude that general beings tend to go back to their original ways of life even after they have gain knowledge. However, they change in a perspective, that is they become more sly and selfish that they do not have the same spirit that unite us all-a sincere relationship. Infact, with the knowledge gained, its very hard to wonder why we have not only return to our original way of life, but have become more wild. So, in the future it will not be a surprise if the "smartest creatures", humans have become wild whereares those that we name "animals" become more civilised. Who knows? It is not impossible. No matter wat, it depends on how we uphold our cherish, beliefs and most of all principles.
Encourage your young ones to be sincere and perhaps our hearts will be filled with sincerity once again. Together we shall strive for the best of all!

P.S. No offence to whomever reading this. Its only my assumption regarding to the
observation through a human's life. There is no fault in observing and interpreting right? It is
what they teach us in school, Science more specifically.

AND YES, THIS IS VERY HARD TO WRITE!

A Summarised Chart of General Beings

2008-09-19T07:45:00.000-07:00

~LOL~

2008-08-19T07:07:00.000-07:00

"Hey, You!"
SHE turned around,"Me?"
"Yes, you! There's nobody else here,"Wyu explained the obvious to HER.
SHE turned a round,"Oh..I didn't realize. Sorry,"
"I need you to bring the tea in to King Lan now,"Wyu explained hurriedly while handing the tray of cups with teapots and glass on it. Wyu was the Head Of Kitchen of the Flame Palace and she certainly was not a very nice person when she is upset.
"Wha--at?! ME?!! NO way!"She screamed. SHE was one of the young girls that were in charge of throwing rubbish. Therefore, SHE has never seen the King before. Infact, SHE did not want to see the King too.
"Yes, YOU. There's nobody else here and YOU so happen to be under ME,"Wyu explained in an arrogant manner with her hands on her hips.
"Um..Um..Um.. Please, I don't want. I'm scared.."
"There's nothing to be afraid of my dear,"Wyu lowered her voice to a considerate tone. "well, except for the fact that King Lan can control fire,"she added silently.
HER face immediately turn pale. Stuttering,"Fire..?!!"
"Well, yes. But there's nothing to be afraid of if you don't upset the King."
Wyu started packing her items while SHE was still in a daze.
"Alright then, I'll see you tomorrow-I hope. Bye!"
"Bye.." SHE started picking up the tray when SHE realized what Wyu had said-I HOPE. SHE stopped suddenly. All sort of 'What ifs' was popping in HER head. "Great, just great. I always manage to attract trouble! I hope he has a good heart.."
Silently praying for the better, SHE boldly enter King Lan's chamber. Knock Knock-"Come in," came the order from the inside. SHE pushed the door open with her back while carrying the tray with both hands. SHE figured if SHE let go of one hand, the tray will fall since were hands were cold and shivering. Strangely enough, the chamber was decorated with flames. Sparks was floating around HER and she was enjoying it. Slowly, SHE moved closer to the bed. As SHE approached the bedside table, she noticed that the King had long hair-SHE did not dare to look at the King.
"Your tea, my Lord," SHE offered a cup of tea to him.
"Thanks," a female voice was heard.
Unable to resist the temptation to find out whose voice was that, SHE looked up,"You are a girl?!!"
SHE realize what she had done a few seconds too late and bowed immediately,"I'm sorry, I'm sorry"

LosT

2008-08-05T03:44:00.000-07:00

well
i never knew i wud b lost
for 7 months
wait
1 year n 7 months
but
i've decided
its time to get back on d road
n so
i've decided to pick up
n go
i noe u hav no idea wat i'm talkin bout
BUT
trust me
I do
XD
n i ain't gona fall tat easily!
i'm BACK!!

lol-my blog is super dead

2008-08-05T03:42:00.000-07:00

lol
my blog is like super dead
haha
so long since i updead
sori yea
been busy~
hehehe
XD

Exam Results~

2008-06-14T08:55:00.000-07:00

...
...
tis is d worst results that i've gotten so far..
n
well
i'm oni proud of 1 subject
XD
sejarah!!!!!!!!!!!
hahaha
noe y?
coz i had 55 oni for my 1st monthly test
n i cudn't stand it
so i studied for tis sub.. well ONLY tis subject
hehe
n therefore..
nw d rest of my papers scored terribly..
veri nicela
haiz
goin into science stream but failing for almost all of d science subs
lol
nice
veri nice
n then next year is another headache..
sigh
nvm
nw i better get sum slp 1st
gdnite ppl!
XD

Post Holiday Symptoms

2008-06-14T08:39:00.000-07:00

okay
for one thing
it has only been less than a week since holiday end
BUT
it felt like few months or so has passed
wow..
i was so shock when i thought of it
mayb coz i was reali bz tis week
1st there is my test results = terrible terrible n terrible
my worst result so far in my whole life!
then there is choir competition
Oops.. WAS
n we got anugerah khas juri or sumtin
which made me stayed back for 3 days n spend 1 whole day in KDU
n i still can't blieve tat i manage to leave home at 6.20 am n oni reach home at bout 11pm
lol
17 hours.. super chun! n stingki too.. lol
then 3rd
got this invitation ting 2 do
ended up makin me stay back for d whole week
so exhausting
n worst-4th kem siang
as if i'm d peserta
but no..i HAV 2 b d ajk
eesshh
so tiring man to day 8 to 5pm sumore
worst than normal school day
5th~EST project
i noe i hate doin last min stuff
but sumhow
i always end up tat way
i'm gona try to fix that
aniway
dahla takda masa with all d above, est project must come!!!
geram..
6th, perhaps
is d stress on whether to resign o choose a lower pose o resign totaly
i finally decided to resign totaly..
BUT
its partly impossible
therefore nw
i still do not noe wat m i gona b next year
esh
so weirdla
hopefully next week will b better!!!

Langkawi Trip

2008-05-27T20:27:00.000-07:00

wow..
langkawi trip
suppose 2 b fun
but do u noe wat happen?
d bloody teachers spoil our 1st nite
n then v were actuali quite slpy 2 do any tings
luckily it was quite relaxing
d 1st nite
was reali terrible
we were all pissed
esh
so geram u noe
so bloody selfishla they
nvm
after tat
it was much better
v went kayakin~
woohoo!!
super chun
i went with shob n v can't stop laughing
hahahaha
n then
v almost tertinggal d ferry
haha
coz of KFC
lol
n it was kinda cool
but note to self
buy d ticket 4 a bed instead of chair next time
haha
n v even gt a small party
XD
then shob was locked out of her room
hahaha
nd 2 call them
wow
n u noe wat?
our chalet even has an air con!
hahaha
so nice
i wud go again man
definitely
d cable car was veri awesome
d view was spectacular
seldon use such words
but yea
it IS!!
haha
k
c u guys bb
=)

HI!! hahaha

2008-05-22T07:12:00.000-07:00

woo hoo
exam over
thought i'm gona fail my chem
i'm glad its over
then i get to go langkawi~
yaaaaaa!!
haha
bt i'll miss playin games
then gt all sorts of practices
nicela
just great
holiday
n everyday nd 2 go to SCHOOL
when it is called a school holiday
oh well
no choice
responsibility =)
aniway
argh
my exam
yuck
i'm seriously gona study 4 my end year
tis is terrible
hahahaha
2mw goin langkawi
hahaha
okok
gdnite
hapi holidays!!
HOLIDAYS IS FINALLY HERE!!!!!!!!!!
haha

Choir Competition XD

2008-05-06T04:25:00.000-07:00

WOOHOO!!!!
guess wat?!!
Choir got CHAMPION!!!
LOL
i can't believe it man
when they announce i was like WAT?!
hahahahhaa
so now v will b representing klang
o sumtin like tis
so nd 2 practice again
...
nvmla
XD
hahaha
can't blieve v got CHAMPION!!!
n yea
i haven't actuali updated my blog 4 so long..
n now oni i come
lol
haha
my exam's next week
n tis time
i reali reali tink tat i'm gona fail my sej
AGAIN
is just that nw is worst
swt rite
greatla
i haven't study
T.T
wish me luck
XD
good luck to those of you out there sittin 4 exam!!
bye bye~

Softball Tournament

2008-04-25T07:29:00.000-07:00

wow
tis is like d overall report of softball tournament of tis year
lol
from my point of view tat is
LOL
haha
ok
1st day
haha
d weather was great man
so great tat i actuali got sunburn
n now my skin is peeling
lol
then
v beat 2 teams
lol
but v weren't doin our best
v still have mistakes
n d padang was so clean n dry!
so unexpected
anyway
few of us stayed back to support d under 15
then v went giant
n ate chicken rice
dwanon so nice man
lol
n v ate meals meant 4 below 12 years old
haha
n i skipped tuition
coz i didn wan to slp thr
haha
then 2nd day
it was drizzling at 1st
bt it was ok after tat
v won again
against 2 schools
n again v weren't playin our best
d schools were like not prepared o sumtin
i oso duno
n after tat my leg muscle was reali paining
canot reali run
even now
i can't walk properly oso
n i need 2 run left n right tis morn
haha
it was quite muddy 2day
but we were quite lucky as it was raining 4 d last 2 days
which are actuali reserved for d boys
my shoe n socks were all wet
so disgusting
n well actuali
2day was finals
n v actuali can win
but sumhow
v lost..
n got 2nd
..
sigh
i guess
overall its okay
v'll try again next year
n until then v will start practising
haha
hopefully it will b betetr with less self made mistakes
gdnite!!

Dissapointed to get 2nd

2008-04-25T07:20:00.000-07:00

u noe
its kinda frustrating
2 noe tat u were beaten by sum1 bcoz of ur own mistakes
...
...
v were obviously much better than tat team n yet v got 2nd
noe why?
coz of mistakes tat shudn't hav been committed
n i've contributed some of them..
its kinda annoying
n dissapointing
2 find tat a team tat's nt as gd as urs manage to beat u
by ur own careless mistakes
its so
yer eeeeessshhh
n the worst ting is
sum of them dun even noe that they hav to step on d base
so geram u noe
they dun even noe when to run
n d ball kp comin 2 me 2day
duno y
tak pasal pasal
usualy my position will hav limited amounts of ball
but 2day
almost all d balls came 2 my position
n well
i nvr expected them
so sum i missed
n well
kena sum marah
n sum dissapointing tone
n then hua la
no effect
...
till now
now oni i saw it frm a different pov
makes me even more geram
its so easy yet so complicated
n so near yet so far
next year
well next year
v must at least
thought might nt get champion
v must play nicely
n hopely nt loose due to our own carelessness
let's hope 4 d best
but
still
d saoftball is the greatest!!!
i love softball!!!
lol

Glad to have got 2nd

2008-04-25T07:12:00.000-07:00

u noe
last year rite
when we went 4 softball tournament
v canot even manage 2 go to d 2nd round
v lost 2 games out of 3
n were kicked even b4 v reach 2nd round
BUT
tis year
v moved to under 18
n well
under 18 is suppose 2 b more challenging
o so they says~
BUT
v managed to get 2nd!!!
LOL
hahahaha
v manage to go into finals man
n v actuali got 2nd..
though its nt 1st
its still not tat bad
condisering how far v hav come since last year
so
all v have 2 do now is work harder
XD
n play better next year
haha

WOO HOO!!!!

2008-04-22T03:40:00.000-07:00

LOL
hahaha
softball is d best game man..
n my team
my lovely glove
n my beloved bat!!
hahahahahahahha!!!!
WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!
v got into finals!!!
lol
haha
i'm so hapi
lalala
haha
i'm crazy
well
aniway
i manage 2 miss school 4 2 days
n 2mw there's training
thurs mayb i oso duno
fri is FINAL!!!!!
lol
wow
luckily they postphone d choir competition day to next wed
i love u whoever u r 4 postphoning it!!!!!!
but there's just a bit of prob..
i dun reali noe if i will still hav my voice
lol
i've been screaming so much
n oh goodness
som of them were so annoying
they even call ur name!
so kejila they
kp asking us 2 swing nvm,
sumore u kp asking us 2 do d wrong ting
whr's ur sportmanship?
huh?!
its not all bout winning u noe
win d so wat?
if u dun enjoy d game then there's no point in playin it
oh yea
another ting
hahahahaha!!!
i'm actuali startin to love fielding!!!
lol
i could not blieve tis man
but
oh great
exam
i dun tink i willb studying at all 4 it..
tis week gone
next week gone
d week after EXAM..
lol
duno
c howla
hahahahhaa
but i reali reali veri happi man!!!
hahahahahha
kkkkk
gdnite ppl
n all d best
i love u my softball team members!!!!!
hahahhaa
under 15 o under 18 i still love u!!!!!
i'm super high..
sounds so weird..
nvm
lol
bb
XD

Whoa..LUCKILY!!

2008-04-13T03:35:00.000-07:00

wow..
u would not blieve all d programmes lined up 4 me since last week
i stayed back almost everyday n school n even on saturday i had to stay till 4.30pm!
luckily 2day i didn't reali nd 2 go or my whole week will b gone
my dad is like telling me u can't operate 7 days a week
u'll b exhausted..
i know actuali
i'm already exhausted..
haha
aniway
d worst hav not arrive
n tat is tis week
i'll b staying back 4 omost d whole week again
no nd 2 study
veri "nice"..
n then next week will b d competitions
n luckily they separate d competition out!!!
o i will b torn AGAIN
at least i just nd 2 miss a few practice
other than d whole competition
i oso duno
thr's so many conflict in EACH of them
phew..
i can't wait 4 may to reach
but i dun wan d exam to come
i practically argh
oni 3 weeks left
1 week practice
i week competition
1 week to relax n study
n d next week will b exam
will i b able to score?
a veri good question
hmm
see howla
i'm just waiting to go to langkawi!!!
hahahaha!!
yay yay
u noe actuali there's a trip to penang , genting n a camp to i 4got whr
bt i chose langkawi
wow
in form 1,
there were none
now
there's too many, ON d SAME date!!!
haha
nvmla
next year oni i go 4 d camp
see howla
sumore gt so many meetings
koko has already swallow most of my time
see howla..
=)

i MISSED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-04T07:18:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i can't blieve i missed my camp!!!
n it sounded so nice
compared to previous years
i missed d kembara malam
i missed d jungle trekking
i missed d experience to join my fella teamates play n win
i missed d kembara air terjun
i missed ALL of THOSE
OH GREAT!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
T.T
jor..
all bcoz of all these little little bit of tings which add up
till my resistant go lower n lower
how sweet
NOT
n as if i nt sad enugh
ppl will come and tell me
"y din go 4 d camp? so sadla..rite?"
i'm so sori
n no offence
bt
i'm already sad enugh
if u wan 2 say "i'm sori" okla
u askin me sumore so sad rite?!!!!
tats kinda like purposely wan 2 make me few sadder..
haiz..
nw they came back d
n tat bloody teacher
i do not noe wats wrong wit u
but u seriously hav a tinking problem
so prejudis la u
esh
u tink tat every1 of us r like tat
when u nvr actuali even observe us
u oni judge us based on 1 person
tat's veri veri WRONG
n then u assume tat all of us r d same coz v r from d same group o same class o watso ever
tat is like
so
childish
like
how old r u?
esh
makes my blood boil oni
okla
okla
gdnite ppl
got a story 2 read
WITHOUT disturbances
special request frm d author who has been patiently urging me 2 go read..
lol
bt so sori
i wasn't reali online
4giv me yea
XD
gdnite!

HEY!!

2008-04-04T07:08:00.000-07:00

hi!!..
wow..
it has been sooooo long since i came to my OWN blog to write sumtin
well..
here i m
=)
1stly
i've been kinda hooked up wit sumtin else which is gettin more addictive each day
therefore for d benefits of all..
i decided 2 cut down on tat activity
and well
i guess i nd 2 start doing my homeworks
lol
ppl actuali tink tat i studied at home
when i dun even hav d time to do my homework
esh
rupa-rupanya nt doin homeworks in time 4 d due date can b a stress
especially when tat teacher comes up 2 u n say
"Yla? so little ting oso canot finish mea?"
grr
as if i duwan 2 finish it
n i hav to rush in school
wit so many tings piling do u tink i purposely leave it 4 school hour 2 rush it wit my other stuffs?
zzz
haiz..
well
hope tat i can manage my time properly
=)

My 1st Monthly Test Results

2008-03-18T07:17:00.000-07:00

LOL
my results are far much better than wat i've expected
i've actuali expected no "A"s at all..
manatau
sumhow
i oso duno wat happened..
end up like tat
n my sejarah
esh
mau fail tak mau
mau dapat bagus pun tak boleh
so end up
its like hanging lol
haha
n i lost my rm1
T.T
so now its like ok ok ok ok NT ok
lol
next time gt to do better
bt d ting is
i'm veri neutral
i mean
i'm feelin veri neutral
lol
i m like get tis?
oh okay get getla
lol
no feelings at all..
duno wat happen
haha

LOL

2008-03-18T06:59:00.000-07:00

hihi
lol
omg
LOL
i'm seriously laughing
lol
hahahahahha
tak sangka atc will hav such a huge impact on my schoolmates
LOL
nt the course o anyting
BUT
d trainers
LOL
i dun see y they r so emm..interested in them oso
LOL
i see them
n i langkah seribu to d opposite side
they can actuali miss them
LOL
hahaha
"perfect" guy
LOL
hahahaha
okay
i'm just saying generally
lol
no offence to anybody in particular
LOL
hahahhaa
okok
gdnite ppl

ATC

2008-03-15T06:04:00.000-07:00

Note: A= Adult T= Training C=Course
lol
i actuali never plan on going for ATC
since last year actuali
bt tings changed
n i was pulled in
due to responsibility
same old same old
okay
anyway
i was expecting a very dull n exhausting camp
manatau
lol
luckily i went!!!
hahahahhahahaha
seriously
i strongly urge u to go 4 it
its FUN!! lol
though thr r exams
bt then it isn't tat hard..
mayb just wat u cud do..
o sumtin
coz i dun feel it as an exam..
no idea y
anyway
lol
LOL
marching was super fun!!
haha
especially last nite
whr my school team march n march continuously til 1.30am
lol!!
its was so fun!! hahahahhaa
n then
i dun reali noe
bt
it just makes me love marching even more
n especialy d tongkat
lol
it's so funny
bt i tink i gt a bruise coz of tat
so sad
anyway
i've gotten much darker..
bt i dun reali mind
coz i had fun!!
glad it wasn't a waste of time
officers weren't tat bad either
sum r so cute..
lol
n so
basically
i enjoyed it coz of d marching
it wud b much better if d footdrill is longer than 1st aid..
lol
n u noe wat?
my shoe almost separated.. top from bottom
XD
n my foot reali hurts 4 d 1st few times stomping
bt after tat sumhow d pain will go away
n lol
guess wat?
after ytrdy's nite marching
v went back 2 our dorm..
n chat til 3++am
so chun
but then
when we woke up at bout 5.30++am lol
v were all pandas
hahaha
still
it was fun
n i learnt lots of stuff
so
i definitely encourage u to go
i wana go next year
bt next year will b homenursing======YUCK
T.T..nvm..
nw i'm tinkin of d youth camp
bt i oso gt another camp
n i tink its better that i go 4 d other camp
so i guess tis is it
n yea 1 more ting
i've slept 10 hours in 72 hours..
ain't tat cool
which makes me an official panda
lol
okok
i haven't sleep at all since i come back
n i'm reali dozing off
so i better go
XD
gdnite ppl!!
do make sure u join d atc next year!! lol

Holiday---yea rite

2008-03-11T07:37:00.000-07:00

i nvr thought tat i'll b this scared bcoz of tis 1 stupid ting
i actuali thought tat tis was gona b better than 2day
but turns out
esh
so much 4 holiday
grr
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesssssssssssssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
whr gt holiday?
u tink v so free mea?
just bcoz u'r free doesn't mean i'm
n y d hell did i ke gao
so smartla
eesshh
stupid me
stupid responsibilities
stupid decision
grrrrr
i duwan 2 go 2mw
but i hav no choice
n then
dis hav to happen
...
...
didn't mean to
but then
kns...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat the hell
haiz..
let me calm down
i'm so gona screwed 2mw
n d day after
n d day after d day after
n oso d day after d day after d day after
lol
n i'm freakin scared
n mad at d same time

my 1st MOnthly Exam

2008-03-07T07:35:00.000-08:00

lol
guess wat?
my 1st monthly test
is my worst test so far..
i did nt study at all
was half sick
n was half playin other tings
so wasn't bother at all..
so i gt pick up b4 my mid term
..
aniway
hahaha
my add maths
was kinda weird..
i thought i knew how 2 answer
manatau
i on d spot oni realize i 4gotten how 2 do all of them
end up=blank
lol
n then
after tat was my sej
i was haha
perhaps shock 4 add maths
tat i laughed when i took my paper
noe y?
coz i hav no idea wat d paper was talking bout
so
in another term
i noe it was sure fail
n i actuali made a bet wit my fren
haha
lol
1st time
1st time
d others was well
sum are ok
sun nt tat ok
sum blur
sum hentam
yea
sumtin like tat
tat's d result of nt studying
my advice to u guys
study b4 ur exam
n dun tink u noe it already agak-agak tembak
=tat's wat i did 4 add maths
lol
n my maths!!!
hahaha
d oni subject tat i actuali studied 4
i hate d stupid sets
n i'm veri hapi of my achievements..
though thr will b a red amrk on my report card..
well
haha
i dun wan it ever again
bt
i will get rm1 4 d red mark
lol
so
i tink its fine
lol
k
gdnite ppl
i'm still bored
=(

I'm Bored..

2008-03-07T07:22:00.000-08:00

i'm bored
seriously
it's a friday nite
shudn't ppl b online o sumtin?
...
i guess mayb its coz i played too much of maple
..
hehe
n i miss sum ppl
lol
can't blieve my words
aniway
i gt a hair cut
n actuali
i tink its okay..
but i dun tink it matches my school uniform at all..
it only makes me look like a big pumpkin
eesshh
n a nerd..
wait
a childish nerd
imagine..
well
i'm gona leave my hair
so nt much 2 worry bout then
except bunning my hair..
oh n yea
next week's gona b a holiday..
but i dun tink it's goin to b a holiday
eesshh
adults tink v'r veri free
tat they know everyting when they dun noe a ting bout wat v noes
eesshh
so they assume tat v r free 24 hours
so they make us work
n push all responsibilities to us
when its actuali theirs..
how irresponsible!!
n they dare scold us when it's actuali their fault
how..
childish
no idea wat to say
speechless
n gues wat?
2mw's election day..
d whole country's like so dirty n ugly coz of all d stupid banners
i'm nt siding any1 just saying its an eye sore
aniway
they r oso wasting our natural resources, our $$ n our beautiful nature n time
wat a dumb ting to do

It's TIME

2008-03-01T05:00:00.000-08:00

it's time
v stick up 4 each other
v fulfil our responsibilities
there's no 1 to lean on anymore
v'r on our own
tat's wat life's bout
n most of all
there's d younger ones tat need our care n affection,
our protection frm harm
n much much more
v will b their leaning pole
whr they learn from
n v will b look up 2
as how v look at our seniors b4 us
so now
v shud start gaining
learing
n progressing
to ensure d future will always b there
especially in our hands
2 survive is nt a choice
but a must
d young ones depends on us
n so
v shall nt dissapoint them
tat's wat leading is all about
if u can't handle it
drop it
o learn b4 u take any on ur shoulder
u might bring d whole ting down
i dun tink u wan tat to happen
so
tink of wat u can do
n wat u will do
instead of d rewards
its nt an easy task
but i'm sure
with ur loyal frenz n family
u will b able to do it
all d best
n gambate
may u carry tis on!!

AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-29T06:07:00.000-08:00

1 whole week of torture!!!
as if nt enugh i gt mock down by flu, fever, headache, neckaches, sore throat, cough, ear block, nauseating n giddyness
i cannot eat my favourite food..
dahla my taste buds dun taste anyting
i hav to eat d food wit d minimest taste
results:
i eat food without tasting anyting..
wat a wonderful week
i miss my nice nice food
it wud b nice 2 b able to smell sumtin 2
i can't even smell d fried food fryin
so sad..
T.T
i wan my buds to regain senses
n i look so sick..
eeshh
every1 is like
"r u sick?"
they look at me oni they noe i'm sick..
n i hav been absent frm school practically d whole week..
n there's my xams next week
n i haven't study oso..
i'm so gona fail..
nvm
WAIT
if fail my koko .........
EESShh
dahla sakit
so many ting to tink bout
then 2mw gt marching
i wana go but canot go
sunday gt meeting duwana go but hav to go
sesat o nt u say?
haiz..
ok ok
gdnite

Bullshit

2008-02-29T05:41:00.000-08:00

ain't it obvious tat u r already 1-sided?
i did nt ask y did u hit ME
i asked y did u nt hit HIM
i was wrong-fine, u hit me acceptable
if i was never wrong i will never let u hit me
AND SO
u shudn't hav answer me y u hit me
even ur answer is wrong..
it contradicts to d "species" tat u claim to hate..
do u actuali noe tat u r acting like them?
i bet u hav no idea
aniway
after telling bullshit..
u STILL did not fulfill wat i've asked u of
instead
u tried to make me a laughing stock
how sweet of u
=)
lucky u i wasn't feeling sp fell tat day..
eesshh
i regretted wat i did..
i shud hav asked further..
its so
unfair
n so
eesshhh
u noie wat happened n u noe u'r right but tat idiot still insists he's right
n everybody else's still supporting d idiot
tat's wat happen these days
all these
are called
BULLSHIT

hahaha

2008-02-25T22:49:00.000-08:00

u noe wat?
i just realize tat i've made so many spelling errors in my blog..
mayb coz i didn't recheck..
lol
so swtla..
n ea
d "balentine"
OI
u hav gt to noe tat it is actuali "valentine" rite?
b is next to v!!!
so it's nt my fault.
=P
n guess wat?
i'm sick
T.T
wastin time at home..
n i miss my photography session AGAIN
veri nice
hopefully i get to go to school 2mw
i reali reali wana take my class pic
T.T
but i dun feel like goin
i might pengsan..
see howla

Debate?

2008-02-22T04:28:00.000-08:00

debate is fun
IF
it is judged fairly
where in d world do ppl do tat?
oni selfish ppl like YOU
n u dare call urself a very fair person?
my FOOT
eesshh
veri geram man
nt oni 4 tis
4 tat oso u did d same ting
grr
haiz
i gtg d
so bye

Speechless..

2008-02-18T00:56:00.000-08:00

u noe wat?
hahaha
my cold aka sum sort of flu started on valentines nite
great
haha
i was sneezing practically d whole nite in tuition
n d next day
i took soooo long 2 decide 2 go
but
in d end
i didn't go..
i woke up at 6
but i didn't go
then
haha
i slept all d way through til 12+
imagine if i've had gone to school..
mayb i'll pengsan
haha
n then
u noe wat?
4 tis whole cny
i've done practically nothing
except wat u do durin cny
means now i gt tonnes of homework
great?
haha
n i'm still tinking of playin..
T.T
well
gt focus..
guess tat's it
c ya!
=)

Happy Valentine's Day!!

2008-02-12T01:03:00.000-08:00

haha
Valentine's day's comin!!
n guess wat?
it's packed!!
T.T
1st there's dis date wit teachers
then there's tis date wit my fellow choir members
THEN
there's tis date
where v watch a movie called
"Add Maths Blues"
haha
wat a wonderful day..
N
d list is not finish
sabar sabar
after that
there's prayer
where i get to watch fireworks!!!
~wee~!!!
hahahaha
n they r reali pretty!!
haha
then mayb i'll skpi school on friday
but there's est..
eesshh
nd 2 go to listen to lectures..
but i guess it wun b tat bad..
=)
ok
Hav a Hapi Hapi Balentines day wit ur luv ones!!
n oh yea
guess wat?
haha
my fren's wit my another fren now
ain't tat sweet?
haha
n then there's more to come SOON
hope they make their move fast
then nest year got extra angpaus!!
XD
lol

YOU r sooooo RUDE

2008-02-12T00:47:00.000-08:00

do u realize tat u were so rude?
eessshhh
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.....
...
...
....
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....!!!!!
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.....
.....
.....
.....
... ..... ..... .... ... ... ... ... ... ...
.... ... ... ... ...............
!!!!!!!!
eeessshhh..
wastin my energy
oh yea
dun carela
oh yea
Valentine's Day's comin!!!
hahahaha
Hapi Valentine's day ppl!!
=)

Teachers

2008-02-05T00:39:00.000-08:00

u noe..
i hav a reali werid character 2wards teacher
its like
even if u give tonnes of homework
n mayb u scold nonstop
i will still respect you
IF
u r sincere
BUT
if
u'r nt sincere at all..
n u giv NO homeworks at all
n u giv free periods..
prepare to b bomb by me
=)
n sumtimes i can't reali get it..
so wat if
i'm a gurl?
i'm a teenager?
i happen 2 b 1 of d "good" class?
i'm a prefect?
does it mean tat i canot do any mistakes?
does tat mean i canot do wat boys do?
does tat mean i hav to b naughty?
does tat mean i canot break rules?

who in d world gave u d rights to judge me based on wat i AM
y dun u STOP judgin
n START using ur heart
i blieve
if u dun hav d passion 4 ur job
then
it's nt worth ur life
quit it
n find sumtin tat u like
instead of just waitin there 4 ur pay
it not oni makes ur like miserable
it makes d students life miserable 2
n oso their parents life miserable
in d end
wat happens?
d whole world miserable
how sweet
ain't it?

i haven't update 4 so long d..lol

2008-02-05T00:34:00.000-08:00

haha..
it feels like i haven't update my blog 4 so long d..
manatau its oni been a few days..
haha
aniway
i'm so glad tat cny is comin!!!
haha
n then now's holiday so
XD
lol
but then nd 2 fin my homework..
n cny gt so many tingsla..
i wan to do tis n tat but all clashin..
nvmla
see how
=)
haha
Happi Chinese new Year ppl!!

Help me!!

2008-01-27T05:23:00.000-08:00

oh my..
Help Me!!
i'm sorta falling..
no WAIT!!
DUN help me
i'm mad..
i'm talkin to myself
haha
so
DUN read tis
its so annoyin
nt being able to control
n then
i'm doin tis
instead of tat
esh..
okay okay
i hav gotta stop tis
i'll stop in feb
jan last
make sure!!
since u'r reading tis
STOP me if i'm still doin tis in feb
thanx!!
i AM mad..
=P

~Wee!!!~

2008-01-25T05:48:00.000-08:00

hahahaha..
i'm so HAPI!!
Chinese New Year is comin!!
lol
yay yay
i get to play
lots n lots of stuff
hahahaha
i'm so crazy
lol
but then gt to miss est
u noe wat?
i tink i'm startin to like est
n oso d teacher
she's so sweet!!
haha
n she sounds sweet oso
lol
yay yay
cny
cny
cny
i'm mad
aiyo
i'm gona miss tuition 4 2days
BUT
i'm gona miss perhimpunan!!
haha
which means its good
!!!
lol
hahahaha
okay okay
advance Hapi Chinese New Year!!
lol

tis is so bloody annoyin..

2008-01-22T05:22:00.000-08:00

y r we learning moral n sivik?
is there such ting as learining moral n ethics through learning n memorising their theories?
does is mean that if v manage to memorise them completely without nay mistakes means v r civilize?!!
i dun tink so..
n i dun tink it will ever happen
wat sort of tinking lead us to study this 2 idiotic subs?
it's so not practical..
n not irrational
not to meantion
DUMB!!!
v shud get d chance to select wat v study
though u may tink tat v may not noe wat's best 4 ourselves,
trust US
v NOE wat is DUMB n wat's NOT
obviously
moral ain't practical
at least
even if u put it in
u DUN hav to put in spm
n wat sort of projects r those?!!
doesn't make sense at all
it's so fake!!!
grr
makin me mad
haiz..
okok
bb
=)

it feels so..i duno how 2 explain..

2008-01-19T06:58:00.000-08:00

u noe
sumtimes
there r times
when u feel as if u duwana ever let go..
n it feels like
u can stay there 4ever..
n u treasure those stuff sooo much..
that it hurts to leave..
all d memories..
d feelings..
d passion
d love 4 it..
d spirit..
even 2 leave 4 just a second
feels unbearable..
sigh
n i can't
i'm being emo man..
haha
nvm
okay continue
lol
okay okay continue
u noe
when i tink of them
i can actuali dissapear
lol
i mean mentaly
my mind will fly off sumwhere..
especialy when i hear bout them
o when i see them
d sound of d harmonisation..
d sight of softball..
d sound of laughter created by energetic ppl
it reali
makes me
feel tis way..
haha
i duno y am i writin tis oso..
just
it's nice..
=)
haha
okay
gdnite!!

Wat's happening?!!!

2008-01-19T06:43:00.000-08:00

OH NO!!!..
i can't do it anymore..
T.T
i
oh no..
eesshh
wat happened?!!
it didn't used 2 b like this..
T.T
i wasn't like tat last time
but..
!!!!!
tis year
OH NOOOOOO
how?!!!
i got to overcome itla
so stupidla
wat's wrong wit it?!!
eesshh
haiz..
sumore tat fella
so
so
so
insensitive
grr
NEVERMIND
haha..
okay

WOW!!!

2008-01-12T05:07:00.000-08:00

hahahaha
i'm never missing one of those!!
lol
n being committee hav their benefits 2 u noe?
lol
n guess wat?
i'm reali sleepy
but i still dun feel like slping yet
mayb coz i'm facing YOU
lol
okay okay but i'm reali gona slp after tis d..
n u noe wat?
i just notice sumtin veri interesting 2day
ppl from sjam
r actuali quite sporting!!
lol
they talk..
they laugh..
they dance..
they sing..
they hug..
they cry..
they scream..
etc etc
no matter guy o gurl..
even if they duno u n u duno them
u can still actuali hold each other..lol
hahaha
it's super cool..!!
haha
n most of all..
they'r natural..=)
they help each other
n stuff stuffla
it's reali quite nice once you'r in d stage
but b4 tat
it might b a lil stressful
o sumtin
but once tat is over
d wonderful part will come
n i reali reali LOVE it!!
lol
haha
n then 2day
i'm surprise i wasn't feeling so sleepy..
usually i will b half dead
but
2day i was kinda energetic..
lol
especially durin d versus game!!
haha
i wana play more..
T.T
haha
okay i tink i talk too much d
lol
k
bb
nite!!

wow..2mw is gona b a VERI exhausting day..

2008-01-10T23:54:00.000-08:00

wow..
to tink tat school is tiring..
koko activities are even more tiring..
i hav a veri veri weird day 2mw..
n i might just drop dead..
haha
i'll b out by 6++ n b back at 8++
all d while doin sumtin..
hahaha
n i dun reali noe if there's softball o nt..
but aniway
if there is
i oso won't go..
n i nd 2 change my "costume" thrice..
lol
my role will change from 1 to another..
plenty to play 2mw..
reali reali reali weird
i'm already quite tired
but dun feel like slping
hehe
mayb next week
i'll start
i've gt to stop playin pc man..
i'm slippin..
n sleepin
lol
haha
okay okay
gtg play
last day of d week u noe?!!
next mon oso duno gt wat
oklah
bb
=)

whoa..haha

2008-01-09T04:02:00.000-08:00

wow..
guess wat?
haha
v had softball practice 2day..
n i was reali reali
BAD..
lol
haha
n u noe wat?
i actuali thought tat i know how 2 avoid a ball flyin 2wards me
manatau
hahahaha
my reflexes sorta wasn't alert enugh
n
wham-
d ball went straight to my right eye!!
lol
haha
luckily i dun tink ut bruised..
but it was reali funny
haha
i din even noe it was heading 2wards my right eye
but sumhow
my right eye auto close
so it was quite weird..
haha coz my d other eye was like seeing u noe
it's like i saw wat happened while it happen
haha
real funny
okay
i gtg
bb!
=)
haha

eesshh..wat sort of ruling is that?!!

2008-01-09T04:00:00.000-08:00

grr..
where in d world do ppl enforce that type of rule?!!
it's soooo ridiculous..
i'm so nt gona do tat..
it's veri veri dumb
just bcoz they gt power
they tink they can do wateva they wan izit?
eeessshhh
watch me
n c if i actuali folow wat u instructed!
=P

i'm mad.. hahahahhaha

2008-01-08T06:04:00.000-08:00

i'm mad..
dun read tis if u tink i'm mad..
lol
hahah
coz i AM
lol
i'm too high now
i can't wait 4 2mw!!
after 2 months plus wit my beloved glove doing nth..
FINALLY
i get to go out!!
hahahahahahhahahaha
n i get to play in d field
mayb
i say MAYB
even under d rain!! lol
dis is d best chance man..
i missed playin under d rain
like last year's competition..
though it was kinda distracting haha
but it was still fun!!
i thought tat tis year we won't hav any practice d
coz gt lots of tuition n stuff
haha
manatau ada
but break into 2 dayslo..
nvm
at least v get to train
n thank god d coach isn't there
*shhhh..*
dun tell him
lol
haha
but sat terpaksa meet him
T.T
but
i dun tink i'll b able to attend sat practices tat frequently..
coz of tis n tat..
haiz..
saturday is d oni time where v play game!!
so sad..
grr
grr
eeessshh
haiz..
terpaksalo..
see howla next year
haha
but i tink it will b worst than tis year
=)

i don't know wat to do anymore..

2008-01-06T05:10:00.002-08:00

oh no..
d more i get drag in
d longer i wan to stay..
n i can't reali stop now..
if i stop
tat wud b veri irresponsible
..
i dun noe to do anymore
i actuali thought of quitting
but
now tat i gt drag in
i dun wan to quit
in fact
i tink i wana join now
n d more i tink of it
d stronger my goosebumps are..
oh great
i'm doom
as if tis year nt bz enugh
i can't imagine next year..
i 2nite reali sesatla..
duno y
haha
okay
gdnite ppl!

i don't know wat i

2008-01-06T05:10:00.001-08:00

i oso duno..=)

2008-01-06T04:31:00.000-08:00

u noe wat?
i duno wat to type anymore..
i used to hav lots of "ideas"
now..
although its still there
i dun feel like typing at all..
haha
so
i'm actuali typing
sumtin
here
i TINK
haha
2mw's monday
i'm anticipating
yet
i do nt wan it to come..
so..
well
i oso duno
haha

haha..

2008-01-05T07:02:00.000-08:00

whoa..
though i missed softball 2day..
d other event was quite fun 2
especially d last part
lol
hahahaha
n then next week
i nd 2 stay back
but guess wat?
i reali miss softball practices on weekdays now..
miss how v get together to eat
n then hang around
n of coz goin 2 d library
haha
n startin d practice whenever we please
(except when d captain insists)
lol
haha
haiz..
haha
wait
n u noe WAT?!!
oh god..
bcoz of tat stupid sivik
i nd 2 stay EXTRA late in school
n if there's meeting
i tink i nd 2 go straight to tuition AFTER stayin back in school
oh god..
imagine
no way
no way
NOOOO!!!
i DUN WAN
i'll b in my uniform!!!
n tat is NO WAY
stupid sivik
i reali reali hate sivik
wasting time
grr

Hello!! haha..

2008-01-04T04:06:00.000-08:00

Wow..
u noe..
ppl always say tat 1st day of school o usually 1st week will b like nth rite?
haha
tis year
was totally diff!!
lol
i guess i reali missed school..
not to mention my frenz =)
n my form 1 class!!! haha
i love my class..=)
lol..
n 2day was oni d 2nd day..
but
my arms are already aching-carried too much books
lol
i wonder how m i gona go 4 pretelematch 2mw..
haiz..
i reali wana go softball..
but..
i can't
i reali reali miss it
sumtimes..
i reali wonder y i wasn't more selfish
haha
anyway
i hope i dun waste my time there..
hope it's goodla..
i feel so bad..
i'm abandonin my team..
n my glove
n d field!!!
i miss d smell of grass..
hahahahahahaha
lol
it proves tat i've been indoor 4 too long..
n guess wat?
2mw is ONLY d 1st sat since school reopen
n i hav 2 b away till bout 4pm
at least half day acceptablela
but
haha
tat's like 3 quarter day
anyhow
i still hav 2 go
so..
hope its nt wasted
it's my responsibility afterall..
which most ppl these days neglect..
all d duty bound feeling gone
no guilt n nth
no passion
oni greed
tat's y they'r like robots-no feelings at all..
haiz..
hope it gets better
haha
okay
hav a wonderful day
my arms even hurt when i type
lol
bye!

oh NOOOO!!! T.T

2008-01-02T06:00:00.000-08:00

oh NOOOO..!!!!
School's startin 2mw!!!
AHHHH..
i nd 2 wake up early d..
n then i can't go online tat much d..
T.T
n then all d work will come in tonnes..
T.T
AHHHHH
n then
i won't b able 2 write here
n then there's tis
n then there's tat..
OMG
tis sat..
HOW?!!!
n i wana go footdrill!!!
i duwana go to tat stupid function
blek
HMPH
T.T
AHHH..
sob sob
haiz..
school starting..
n i nd 2 wear tat stupid skirt
yuck..
nice okla
but it's nt nice
at least mine's not nice..
T.T
haiz..
oklah
gdnite ppl
Hapi Schooling
=)
hahahaha

Brr..

2008-01-01T23:28:00.001-08:00

EEEEEESSSHHHHHHH...
i just typed out
n then got sum error here..
as if i m not angry enugh...
grrrrrrrrrrrrrr
YOUUUUU
r soooooo
making me mad..
aniway
YOU
YOU
n YOU
grr
YOU know tat irritates me
n u noe i hate being angry
n YOU purposely makes me angry everytime
do u noe how frustrating it is?
eesshh
well
chill
chill
okay
chill
okay
bb

a "Friend"

2008-01-01T06:57:00.000-08:00

i sumtimes wonder..
wat does a fren do
do they support u all d way?
o
do they wake u up b4 u go 2 d wrong way?
either way..
they r still call "friends"
IF
u r doin sumtin wrong..
n they stil "support" u all d way..
r they still called friends?
tis is wat i wonder..
but then
i'm sure that every1 has diff characteristics..
so
i dun reali noe..
i may actuali treat u as a fren
but u might not =)
i may actuali treasure u
n u cud just ignore me..
i may actuali luv u
n u cud accuse me of lying n pretending
when all i wan is 2 protect u
so..
being frens
is reali haha
weird at times..
especially when it's down
but no matter wat
if i tink u'r true
n if u'r my fren,
i'll back u up all d way
EXCEPT when u'r making a big mistake
=)
by then
i dun expect u 2 stay as my fren
but i do hope tat it will make u realize
n
4 u to nt hate me
=)

Softball..=)

2008-01-01T06:23:00.000-08:00

i duno y..
i duno HOW..
hahahahaha
BUT
i reali REALI love softball!!!!!
hahahahahahahaha
i luv battin..
i luv catching
n
i luv throwing
n BEST of all..
i love my TEAM!!!
hahahahahahaha
they look reali cute XD
lol
n school's starting
means softball training/practice's starting!!
HAHAHA
but
T.T
T.T
jor
jor
jor
grr grr grr
eessssshhhhh
duwana talk d
HMPH
buh bye!!!

I already know tat, ty veri much

2008-01-01T06:08:00.000-08:00

i already know that..
just can't reali help it
i already feel guilty thank u veri much
so it's enugh 4 me 2 regret
+ all of wat u said..
it just makes it hurt more..
=)
i already know..
so thank you veri much
i just can't help it..
and
anyway
u won't know if i had actually plan 4 tat..
so..
u shudn't just tell me without listening 1st..
it's weird..
so..
i will try
2 listen
n another thank u
but pls listen
b4 u say anytin
=)

I dun noe wat is goin on..

2007-12-31T07:15:00.000-08:00

i duno if tis is true
duno y r u doin tis
duno if i shud trust u
duno y aren't u telling me
duno if u'r sincere
duno if u'r tellin d truth
n duno lots morela
d ting i duno is
WAT m i doin here?!!
typing all d dunos..
haha
when now is new year eve..
n i'm suppose 2 b countdown-ing
haha
anyway
i dun usually do tat
so i'm here
=)
anyway
Happi New Year 2008!!
haha
my resolutions:
-survive year 2008
haha
i noe it's ridiculous..
but just 4 fun
XD

Whoo-hoo!! lol haha

2007-12-31T02:34:00.000-08:00

WOW..lol!!
haha
i never thought tat bowling wud b tat fun..
though i dun tink i bowl correctly..
i'm actuali throwing it..lol
hahahahahahaha
but still
it's funny!! hahaha
haha
seriously
it's so funny..
n it kp masuk longkang
haha
n i gt 1 strike!!!
hahahahahahaha
i'm so hapi
=)
lol
but later gt physics tuition..
T.T
well..
haha
i'll try
=)
lol

Emm..Bz? haha

2007-12-30T06:14:00.000-08:00

okay..
let's see..
school's starting REAL soon..
n it's ONLY d 1st month n i tink i will b quite bz..
let's see shall we?

1)1st program:-
-1st sat: gt sumtin
-2nd sat: gt sumtin
-3rd sat: gt sumtin but i'm not goin =)
-4th sat: gt sumting again haha
well
let's stick 2 jan 1st
okay then

2)2nd program:-
i dun reali noe..
but i need 2 b there
on d same sats,
same TIME..lol
n yea
4got 2 mention
diff place =)

okay
3) my 3rd program:-
OOHHH..i wan 2 go to tis..!!
i missed it veri veri much..!!!
n it's d same time
n d same place
i reali reali reali miss tis..
lol

so..
well
u c
i hav gt 3 tings/programmes at once, diff place
veri nice huh?
haha
n i nd 2 b at 3 place..
haha
let's see how
n it's ONLY jan..
okay
gd nite
at 1st, i was like "WAT?!!"
now i tink it's funny..
i never thought tat tis was possible..lol

Life's weird sumtimes..

2007-12-30T06:02:00.000-08:00

u see..
Life is a veri interesting umm ting..
n well
there's oni a 1 way..
NO 2 way
tat means No turning back
which just means
u oni get to choose once..
n..
once u choose tat choice
it is quite hard to change
which means
u nd lots of courage to back away
2 another world..
well
mayb not world, another "enviroment"
okay..
u see
u actuali kinda got 2 choice:
-enjoy young
-enjoy later
which means
like in your youth
u can choose 2 either:-
-enjoy by playin
-study n study
OR
-do both at once
but surely
there will b a time where u'll nd 2 sacrifice sumting
which is just so weird..
coz..
u can oni choose ONE
n if u choose d wrong 1..
u will miss it
thought there'll surely b another chance
it won't b d same..
v wun b tat young again
=)
wait
i tink i'm typing sumtin reali wrong here
anyway i'm just saying
LIVE WISELY
CHOOSE WISELY
n STAY happi
BUT
do not 4get bout ur future
=)
All the Best!!

Refusing Silently.. T.T

2007-12-29T07:08:00.000-08:00

NOOOOOOOO!!!!
ARGHHHH!!!!!
NOOOO
i DUWAN
T.T
y must i go?!!
i DUWAN..!!!!!!
yer..
T.T
i DUWAN i DUWAN
i DON"T WANT
so LEAVE ME ALONE!!
haiz..
no matter wat..
i STILL nd 2 go..
T.T
sob sob
sigh..
i'm so gona quit tis
i reali reali hate tis
but
sumhow
after tis
i will suddenly change my opinion..
i duno how..
but then later
tis will cum back
sigh
then i will feel guilty..
haiz..
haiz..
haiz..
dunola
see how 2mw
PRAYi get through it in 1 piece
n still manage 2 come back n update u
!!
haha
T.T
okay
gdnite
=)

Missing you..

2007-12-28T07:03:00.000-08:00

Do i miss you?
i do not noe..
u only bring back misery..
n all my bad days..
my problems
my worries..
u use 2 b so fun..
n i can spend days wit u-i dun mind
=)
but now..
haha
it's scary even to tink of u
u oni bring out all d stuff n events tat i duwana meet
but at least
i guess i still hav sum fun wit u
n at least u taught me sum ting
sum ppl tink i'm so hapi wit u..
bt..
haha
i dun tink they noe d half of it..
=)
anyway
sumtimes
i tink taking a break from u
is good
=)
it releases misery of wat i face when i'm wit u
=)
oh well..
i guess i do miss u
mayb a bit
- d misery n all
haha
okay
gdnite
=)

Wat o who r u exactly?..

2007-12-27T23:40:00.000-08:00

sumtimes..
i reali reali do not noe..
i luv u
yet i hate u
i luv u as a whole
yet hate ur concepts,
if sum1 criticize u
i wun kp quiet..
in fact i will tell tat fella off
but
yet
u hav so many faults..
not urs actuali
its coz of sum1 o sumtin else
i do not noe n do not wan to noe
u create stupid facts
ridiculous rules 4 us
who live in ur "world"
yet
you r so unique..
in my opinion
but sumtimes..
i reali hate u
u remind me of tings which make me boil..
as in real mad..
but
no matter wat
i will stick by u
if i hav to fight 4 u
then so b it
u r still my only 1
=)
n i wun let there b another
..
..
unless it's intolerable
if tat ever happens..
i beg forgiveness
4 i'm only human..
but no matter wat
i will NOT betray u
till then
=)

Changes

2007-12-27T06:55:00.000-08:00

okay..
let's see
as expected..
nothing changed
in fact
they took d turn 4 d worst
i do not noe
seriously
whether i shud trust u
it seems hard
yet so easy..
to trust ur instincts?
o ur heart desire's?
o ur mind who's consciously processing every detail to scan any traps?
i seriously dun noe..
yet
there's tis prob
it happens everytime tis happens..
n
i dun reali noe wat to say oso..
it feels so weird..
i gues it IS correct
"unhapi happines"
haha
quoted by a fren of mine
dun tell him i took his idea
=)
just sharin opinion tat's all..
lol
okay then
but anyhow
2day was okay
despite all d well..
nt so nice experience
k
gdnite
n my dear fren
still playin game
duno when oni cum back online 2 chat wit me
T.T
haha
okay
gdnite =)

OKAY..in contrary of d "sumtimes"

2007-12-26T07:01:00.000-08:00

SOMETIMES..
there r times where v wud misunderstand in sum1's else action too..
sumtimes
v might actuali wan 2 protect sumtin o sum1
tat we nvr thought of how they feel..
o mayb sumtiems v r just too bz doin sumtin 4 their sake
n
most of d time
at d beginning
they get it
then..
they will 4get bout it d
o mayb it will slip their mind
so
actuali
it mayb wasn't their fault
4 neglecting n all..
so
dun tink so badly
o negatively
d truth is
just try 2 look at d big picture n u might
MIGHT understand
okay
gdnite
ppl
=)

~High~ lol

2007-12-26T06:51:00.000-08:00

haha
when i'm high
i cud get reali annoying
o reali frenly
considering tat usually i'm quite quiet..
haha
oh well..
when i get high
i DO NOT noe how o y
but my face will turn red
as if i've been drinking-when i'm actuali not
haha
aniway
n eventhough d room might b quite cold..
i will feel warm d
haha
so weird rite
lol
haha
okay
gdnite ppl
n yea
when i'm high
i usually will start to bug ppl
n may act bit childish
take note:
naturally
nt on purpose
k
gdnite
=)

Sumtimes..

2007-12-26T06:28:00.000-08:00

It's reali weird u noe sumtimes..
sumtimes..
ppl ask o demand 4 sumtin from sum1 without actuali concerning bout their potential..
n when they dun get it,
they get reali angry n dissapointed..
i mean..
it's good setting target n all..
but
sumtimes..
it might get ppl stressed out u noe..
especially if u dun reali understand d ppl whom u ask from..
so weird..
i've seen so many like tat..
in long term..
i dun tink it's tat good..
it reali cud spoil one's childhood..
which is actuali quite saddening..
hmm..
oh well
i'm glad mine's nt like tat
=)
haha

i duno wat i'm feeling rite now..

2007-12-25T07:33:00.000-08:00

i duno wat i'm feeling rite now..
my feelings r wobbly
shaking from those songs that i'm listening 2
i'm doin everyting as if i'm veri normal
when d truth is
i'm not normal at all..
i can't laugh..
i can't cry..
i can't get angry..
i can't..
at all..
i do not noe wat happened
..
+ d songs i'm listening to r just emo..
n their feelings r so extreme..
so basically my feelings r like
i oso duno..
try understanding..
i noe sum can't
lol
i dun blame u
in dis mood
i dun reali hav any interest in anyting
if u can make me smile..
it will b a miracle..
lol
2 bad..
none succeeded..
=)
well..
dun b so down coz of my mood..
it's christmas after all
so
Merry Christmas!
n Gdnite =)

let me see if tis works..=)

2007-12-24T20:45:00.001-08:00

whoa..
i just read a veri interesting email..
it says that life is d voyage..
NOT d destination
which i find it veri veri true
but i duno how 2 put it here..
but it is reali seriously veri nice
i've sent to sum of my frenz..
d rest i dunola
anyway
it says that
hapiness is nt from d destination
but d journey
u gain hapiness while goin through life o a process o sumtin
but not when u finally reach it
tis d truth i notice
=)
so well
cherish ur journey of life
n dun wait til it reach 2 tink tat u gain hapiness
it doesn't happen tat way
=)

Holiday Ending..T.T

2007-12-24T19:55:00.000-08:00

...
...
T.T
sob sob
holiday ending d..
T.T
n i hav to end d 2nd last day
in a way tat i rather nt describe..
sigh
haha
i've been sighing a lot lately..
lol
n then later school will start
n i nd 2 wear that uniform
argh..
veri hot wanle..
sumore nd d stupid ting..
grr
wat's d point?
n then will b streaming..
n then less of u d..
T.T
nvmlah
at least school is still fun..
misery has nt drain me from havin fun at school
=)
well..
2 all those like me
happi schooling..!
u'll start to luv it
ONCE u start working
=)
so enjoy while u can
haha